11/23/2025
Another long post but its worth it, especially dealing with mental issues and just thinking that you have failed in life:
I enjoyed the last day with my buddy. It was one of the best days i ever had in a long time. Catching up, talked about pretty much everything and his not in the military which is cool. We just chill and enjoy the scenery in Hawai'i. We became ourselves for a day and just be who we are. Needed this because, its different and it hits better... and made me just me. Honestly, we need to just chill and hangout with our friends... good therapy, just be vulnerable...and have a good time. Being in the military for 20 years and 10 days it was fun and good and made you aware, although my intentions are good and to protect some people you love and care about, I became too stiff and paranoid because you got used to things that you were trained to do,because its not rightand not good and which is weird to the civilians... and even with my family. It is normal for us veterans, but we do need help . Now that im retired, still aware, and somewhat in good health, i was able to be me and enjoy my time with someone you trust. The Military mental stuff, i just need to leave it and throw away which im still adjusting to. i think this important to just be you and express yourself to someone you trust especially dealing with mental issues /problems, depression, anxiety and everything that destroys us as a person. Its not healthy... and it affects our physical health too.. coz they are all connected. I know coz im feeling pain all over now, which is freaking weird. We need to vent. And knowing that you're not alone, and help each other out is such a relief...many times over. And thats why am grateful and thankful for my buddy, even if we dont see each other much, but i can count on him for everything. The best feeling to know that you have someone to talk to and just express everything is good for the soul. Trust me, i know too and you will feel alot better. YOU DO it, once in a while, and i promise, you will feel like a better and different person that feels like a natural high... and healthy to the body and soul. So who ever made it this long to read this...Talk to someone. Be who you are and enjoy because you are awesome. You did good, where ever you are in life. know that i am proud of you and very happy with your accomplishments. WE dont get that appreciation as much from everyone we know but know that i am grateful and proud of every thing you have accomplished in life. I thank my friend who visited... and made me become me again even for one day. I want to let you know that you did great and made a difference to the world and made it better for everyone who lives in it. You are the best and thank you for what you do. Ok im done. This is just me being
