12/09/2025
We had dinner at the base of Jabal Al Nour and I kept staring up at the mountain where the Prophet Muhammad ﷺ used to climb just to be alone with Allah. Before revelation ever came, he would go to the Cave of Hira to worship and search for answers in solitude. It was not easy. It took effort, exhaustion, and real climbing. He did not know when clarity would come, yet he kept returning.
And it made me think about how many times I have climbed my own “mountains” as a mother and especially as a special needs mom. The fear, the overwhelm, the constant unknowns, the prayers that come out of desperation, the feeling of being alone even when you are surrounded by people. We do not know how things will turn out for our children, but our hearts keeps returning to Allah SWT.
Here is the part that humbled me and comforted me at the same time: even the most beloved person to Allah had to go through so many moments of uncertainty, fear, and solitude. He ﷺ had to keep climbing with no sign of what was coming. 🥺That does not make our struggles disappear, but it puts them into perspective. And somehow, it makes the burden easier to carry. If hardship did not spare the one closest to Allah SWT, then hardship is not a sign that Allah SWT is displeased with us. It is a part of growth.
Our challenges cannot be compared to his, but his example shines light into ours. If he found strength through struggle, then perhaps our strength is being shaped through these quiet, heavy moments too. Maybe our “mountains” are not made of rock. Maybe they are therapy waiting rooms, seizures at night, sensory overload, communication barriers, and duas we keep repeating without answers yet. And maybe Allah SWT is watching us climb them just as He watched His Messenger at Hira, with mercy, with intention, and with a plan we cannot yet see.
So no, my journey is nothing like his. But his story helps me breathe through mine. It reminds me that fear and faith can exist together, that struggle can still lead to revelation, and that Allah SWT sees every step even when nobody else does.
Strength is not climbing without fear. Strength is climbing with fear, and still returning to Allah SWT. 🤍