05/03/2024
Godspeed, My sweet grandma!!!! I love you girl!! š
Iām going to say this to you guys because a lot of you really donāt know me besides doing makeup. I am 29 years old and have experienced death very heavily. Love on who love on you and Jesus is literally the savior. This is hitting different for me because it was one person that I just knew was gone be here to help me raise my baby. I lost my mom and a lot more very close people on this life journey. I always say I never know how far Iāve come until things slap me in the face. My grandma lived a long blessed life and was one of the realest people I knew.
Grief is like a rollercoaster you know. Grief is what you make it. Grief is something you have no control over. Grief is grief. When I really went through spiritual warfare and mental things I understood ALOT more. We literally are human but we are here to live and thatās it. We are here to be apart of something bigger, to love, to just be amongst the human race. The earth will literally turn without us but somehow we have now thought it wouldnāt. Thatās a whole other topic for another day.
Rather you believe it or not. Death changes you. Itās made me who I am right now, itās made me angry, itās made me loving, itās made me heal, itās hard!! However, it can change you in a positive way and when the negative comes Jesus takes over! I talk to my mom everyday like she right here with me because she is. This takes strength. This takes wisdom. This takes Jesus. But itās possible. I just want to share my experiences so that maybe it could just help one person to just keep pushing because the light always will shine, though itās so dark.
My grandma passed yesterday, my mom heavenly birthday is tomorrow, and Motherās Day is following behind, aināt that something⦠but he makes no mistake. This MY journey and I wouldnāt change nothing because I wouldnāt be who I am. But my ride has been long, exhausting, strength gaining, blessings, and happiness. Very big shoes Iām walking with. But I AM THANKFUL. š„¹
My grandma didnāt want nothing but praises and thatās what you gone get my baby. I will see you on the other side. Till then you living right here in me!!! ā¤ļø