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Healing abandonment, anxiety & attachment
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05/28/2026

Some children grow up feeling responsible for pain they didn’t create.

That changes you.

05/26/2026

Just because you can’t consciously remember abandonment doesn’t mean your body forgot it happened.

05/23/2026

I think “Baby Girl Smith” shaped more of my life than I realized.
Part 2 tomorrow.

05/19/2026

It was a lot of years into our marriage before I was secure enough to believe my husband wouldn't leave.

05/17/2026

For years, I did not understand that overfunctioning was one of the primary ways my fear of abandonment showed up in my life.

And honestly, this is a little embarrassing to admit publicly, but I’m sharing it because vulnerability helps other people feel less alone.

For many years, I laid out all my husband’s clothes for him.

Not just the outfit.

Everything.

The socks.
The belt.
The shoes.
The undershirt.
Everything.

And once little yellow sticky notes became popular, I even started labeling the outfits by day. Yes. Really. 😂

Looking back now, I can laugh a little, but at the time I genuinely believed I was just being loving, helpful, responsible, and supportive.

But that overfunctioning didn’t just show up at home.

It showed up everywhere.

At church.
At work.
In leadership.
In parenting.
In relationships.

If someone forgot something, dropped the ball, or failed to follow through, I prided myself on being the person who could wear every hat and save the day at a moment’s notice.

I would run to the store.
Teach the class.
Fill the gap.
Solve the problem.
Carry the responsibility.
Handle the emergency.
Fix the situation.

And for a long time, people praised me for it.

But underneath all of it was fear.

Fear that if I stopped performing, producing, helping, anticipating needs, fixing things, or carrying everyone else, I might lose love, safety, approval, connection, or significance.

So I stayed busy.
Hyper responsible.
Hyper vigilant.
Overcommitted.
Over accommodating.
Exhausted.

Overfunctioning can look admirable from the outside, which is part of why many people never recognize it for what it is.

But constantly living in emotional vigilance will eventually wear down the body, the nervous system, relationships, and the soul.

It took me years to realize I did not have to earn my worth by carrying everything.

Awareness changed my life.

I still care deeply.
I still work hard.

But I no longer want my existence driven by fear, pressure, over responsibility, or survival mode.

The other night my husband jokingly said, “I kind of miss when you used to lay all my clothes out ahead of time…”

And I laughed and said, “Keep missing it. I’m never going back to that overfunctioning again.” 😂

I wonder how many adoptees quietly relate to this.

05/17/2026

When belonging feels uncertain early in life, you learn to monitor everything.

05/16/2026

Secondary rejection is a form of psychological torture for many adoptees.

People talk about adoption as though separation only happens once. But for many adoptees, the trauma is repeated later through silence, denial, avoidance, or being ignored by the very person who birthed us into this world.

Psychologists have long recognized ostracism and the silent treatment as forms of emotional abuse because they create profound psychological distress. In the book Ostracism, psychologist Kipling D. Williams explains that the ambiguity of being ignored can make the pain even more powerful. The human mind searches endlessly for answers:
“What did I do wrong?”
“Why am I being erased?”
“Am I unlovable?”
“Did I ever matter at all?”

For adoptees, secondary rejection can reopen the original wound of separation in devastating ways. It is not just about unanswered letters, ignored phone calls, or closed doors. It is the experience of being psychologically erased by your own biological mother and/or family while society simultaneously tells you,
“Adoption was in your best interest.”
“Your mother loved you so much she gave you away.”
“You should be grateful.”

Human beings are biologically wired for connection, recognition, and belonging. Research on ostracism has shown it can dysregulate the nervous system, impact physical health, increase anxiety and depression, and create profound emotional suffering. Some researchers have even compared prolonged social isolation and ostracism to torture because of the psychological damage it causes.

Yet society still debates whether adoptees should have access to their own identities, records, and biological connections.

If adoption is truly about the best interest of the child, then systems built on secrecy, anonymity, and emotional abandonment cannot continue to be defended.

No child should grow up being treated like a secret. No human being should have to beg to be acknowledged by the person who gave them life. And no adoptee should be psychologically abandoned twice, first through separation and then through silence, erasure, or rejection, while society defends the very system that caused the wound in the first place.
This type of behavior should never happen.

05/15/2026

Some wounds come from what’s said. Some come from what’s quietly felt for years.

05/09/2026

I think a lot of people have lived this without ever having language for it.

05/08/2026

Part 3: Both reactions… same outcome. # #

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