08/06/2024
Who would have thought it…new baby at 44 years old 🫣. It took me a long time to wrap my own mind around the idea and here we are… taking adventures and going on with life; as if there was a choice to do anything else. This first half of 2024 has been filled with surprises… many of them not so awesome. We are navigating life without Jeff’s mother in the world, my retirement plan job is ending soon due to closing Labor & Delivery department, and we are rolling with life as parents of kids ranging from age 20- 6 months 😳….its all a blessing somehow..even when I don’t know what that blessing is (for the record- children are ALWAYS a blessing). I’m making time to get outdoors, go on the hike, enjoy our little homestead, and try not to worry or control what I cannot control. On this day in the photo I felt it, finally… the letting go, enjoying the moment, soaking up these kiddos, and just looking out over the lake as a I nurse a tired baby while breathing in the fresh air. It was amazing! Little by little we will find our way, but for now I’m hit with grief at oddest of times, overstimulated to overjoyed, so tired I can’t stay awake yet so thankful to see every moment. I’m all over the map right now and I’m really hoping this second half of 2024 is prepared to deal me a hand of slow and steady while all these pieces fall into place.