Journals from a Broken Mind

Journals from a Broken Mind Book by Diane C. McDaniel

https://youtu.be/gU5ZAMXW2OAMy interview with Babbie Mason regarding mental health awareness. She has allowed me to use ...
07/15/2024

https://youtu.be/gU5ZAMXW2OA

My interview with Babbie Mason regarding mental health awareness. She has allowed me to use her platform to inform and educate others about mental health and the church. Thank you, Babbie! Lots of love!

05/13/2024

My husband is one of a kind. I married him for his money and celebrity status. Just kidding , he is an ordained senior adult pastor in a church. Certainly no money or fame there. He is an ordinary guy with quirks. I love him like I love myself. He is not perfect. But, he is my perfect fit. Opposites attract and Opposites have differences. It is definitely true in our case. Let me start with physical features. He is tall and I am short. His skin tans and mine burns. He lives off of hamburgers, hotdogs, chicken tenders,Cheetos, pizza and coke. I enjoy seafood, grilled chicken, a variety of fruits and vegetables and sweet tea.

My husband and I are worlds apart in how we connect relationally. He is a linear thinker. I think outside the box. I tell a story using color. His stories contain statistics and facts. He holds his emotion inside. I vomit mine out. There are times when he has no thoughts in his head. My thoughts never cease. He uses up all his words while he is at work. I unload my words when he gets home. His description of his day EVERYday goes like so:

Me: “How was your day?”

Husband: “Good.”

Me: “What was good about it?”

Husband: “Nothing bad happened.”

Me: “Nice.”

He rarely asks about my day. I do not know why. Maybe he doesn’t want to get tangled in my drama. Hopefully, you get the picture. We are both vinegar and oil and salt and pepper. Having a mood disorder in a relationship definitely adds to the challenges. But, the mood disorder is not the cause of all relationship challenges. Our mood disorder can definitely wreak havoc. But, even normies have issues. This devotion reminds me of the biblical passage “What is the greatest commandment?”

“Jesus replied: “ ‘Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind.’ This is the first and greatest commandment. And the second is like it: ‘Love your neighbor as yourself.’ All the Law and the Prophets hang on these two commandments.””
Matthew 22:37-40 NIV

The first commandment is obvious. Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind.’ I think the first commandment for me is easier than loving my neighbor as myself. , I need to love my husband faults and all. If we all lived by that principle, we would never walk alone on our mood disorder journey. Consider ways you can love your neighbors. Who are your neighbors? Are neighbors people that are hard to love? Ponder what defines a neighbor? I challenge you to love them all like you love yourself. If you struggle to love yourself, consider yourself to be that neighbor you love.

05/02/2024

Tattoo

Now that many of you have seen my tattoo on Facebook, I want to explain its meaning. The semi colon in the Mental Health world symbolizes that your story goes on. Like the semi colon in grammar gives the sentence the ability to continue on. A period on the other hand ends the sentence. There are different phrases that express the meaning of the semi colon.
Still here fighting
My story isn’t over
No story should end too soon
I am enough
You matter
Live
I’m still here
I chose, “I’m still here,” because my favorite Christian artist ,Mandisa wrote a song titled “I’m Still Here”. For years, it has been my anthem song. She wrote the song after coming out of a deep dark mental health pit. She struggled with her mental health including suicidal ideations. My whole life I have struggled to fight suicidal ideations. The tattoo is very meaningful and I like being reminded that,”I’m Still Here,”on days when I don’t want to be.

May is Mental Health Awareness Month ❤️

04/30/2024

It’s no fun to go toe to toe with an illness that manifests itself in the brain. Medications smother the brain’s ability to think clearly. Sometimes it just hurts to even try. I have been on medication for 18 years and it’s still a struggle. My body is beginning to experience the consequences of being on psychiatric medications for so long. I can’t hide the slurred speech, the tremors and being off-balance. It feels like things are never gonna get better. In fact, they’re only gonna get worse. The side effects have taken a toll on my body over the years. What is my threshold?

I’m in the process of finding a new psychiatrist. It is a challenge because psychiatrists are not a dime a dozen. Pray with me that I find a doctor that cares about my total wellbeing. Please pray that the side effects I’m experiencing will be addressed if not stopped. Please pray that I am patient and pray that I will have patience in the process. God knows best.

04/22/2024

Mandisa

The loss of Mandisa has hit me hard. We still do not know her cause of death. The evidence is pointing to su***de. I sincerely pray that that is not the case. For people struggling with suicidal ideations, the suicidal loss of a celebrity can be devastating. It can have a ripple effect on those who suffer with a mental illness.

Mandisa, was my favorite Christian gospel artist. In fact, one of her songs is my all-time favorite. I have loved it since the beginning. The song title is I’m Still Here. The song emerged after her successful climb out a dark time in her life. Mandisa loved Jesus. She used her platform to share her love for Jesus. No matter the cause, the loss is devastating

What about a celebrity su***de can cause a ripple effect of su***des? I believe there are several reasons why it happens. It’s easy to put a celebrity on a pedestal. When that celebrity falls, it crushes the individuals ray of hope. Also, when a celebrity is the face of hope for those of us seeking hope, it rattles our cage. For me, I know my foundation, my healer, my hope is in Christ. Knowing who Christ is and his wonderful power doesn’t keep me from struggling.

Pray with me if you will that Mandesa’s cause of death is not su***de. She was so young and talented. Her song “I,m Still Here” is my anthem song. I will continue to listen to Mandesa sing. I will listen to her worship Jesus. The one who pulled her through an episode long enough to complete her album “Out Of The Dark.”

For peace of mind, I am not suicidal. I do not know her cause of death, this is an opportunity to educate Normies on a mental health matter. I have been impacted by Mandesa’sloss like many of you. Her loss has had an impact around the world. I’m praying for her family. It’s got to be a very painful loss. Also, I do not believe her loss was selfish. She was in a tremendous amount of pain. She Was ready to be comforted by her heavenly Father

04/21/2024

The Final Round

Sometimes a white knuckle grip is all you can give in your fight to survive the relentless beast. One sweaty palm could cause an unnecessary fatality. Support is so important when a loved one is in the midst of an episode. Judgement is impaired or possibly gone. Any episode is dangerous, but dysphoric mania is the most.

Dysphoric mania is best defined as “having the energy of someone who is manic with the thoughts of someone who is depressed.” It is the most dangerous of all the mood states.Thoughts are flooded with actively suicidal ideations. It is a pain that words cannot describe. Victims desperately want to be out of their head pain, and sometimes go to extreme measures to make it stop. Sometimes even the best outpatient treatment is not enough to keep someone with a mood disorder safe.

Over the years, I have learned healthy ways to manage the mild to moderate dysphoric manias. I know I can’t do it without my professional, family and friend support. Rest is very important. I like to journal and go for walks with my support. Once my episode reaches severe, it unfortunately ends with a 1013 (committed against my will) for my safety and peace of mind for my support.
Exodus 14 (NIV) states, The Lord will fight for you, you need only to be still.” It brings me comfort to know that God has my back. He will fight for me. I urge you not to wait till you are in the final round to make a safety plan. Make your plan in stability, while you still have a say over your treatment.

04/21/2024

May is Mental Health Awareness Month. I’m starting early .

The Final Round

Sometimes a white knuckle grip is all you can give in your fight to survive the relentless beast. One sweaty palm could cause an unnecessary fall to fatality. Support is so important when a loved one is in the midst of an episode. Judgement is impaired or possibly gone. Any episode is dangerous, but dysphoric mania is the most.

Dysphoric mania is best defined as: having the energy of someone who is manic with the thoughts of someone who is depressed. It is the most dangerous of all the mood states.Thoughts are flooded with actively suicidal ideations. It is a pain that words cannot describe. Victims desperately want to be out of their head pain, and sometimes go to extreme measures to make it stop. Sometimes even the best outpatient treatment is not enough to keep someone with a mood disorder safe.

Over the years, I have learned healthy ways to manage the mild to moderate dysphoric manias. I know I can’t do it without my professional, family and friend support. Rest is very important. I like to journal and go for walks with my friends. I make sure to eat even if it’s nott the healthiest. I Watch comedy shows and listen to my favorite music. Once my episode reaches severe, it unfortunately ends with a 1013 (committed against my will) for my safety and peace of mind for my support.

Exodus 14 (NIV) states, The Lord will fight for you, you need only to be still.” It brings me comfort to know that God has my back. He will fight for me. I urge you not to wait till you are in the final round to make a safety plan. Make your plan in stability, while you still have a say over your treatment.

04/10/2024

Around this time last year ago, I began writing a new book with challenging content. You've been warned, so please stop reading if need to. Here is part of the conclusion.

I want to believe I will keep my darkest thoughts to myself from this day forward. I cannot survive another hospital stay. I enter the hospital broken and come out shattered. Medication adjustments are left unfinished. I am thrown back into the real world to deal with the aftermath from all the hospital trauma on an unfinished medication cocktail. I am conflicted in so many ways. To remain silent in my darkness could cost me my life. But, that is what I want. Right? No. I do not want to die. I want out of my head pain. Is that possible? Sometimes, I feel treatment resistant. There are times when medical illnesses run out of treatment options. I think it is the same for mental health illnesses. It would devastate me if a mental health professional ever told me I was treatment resistant. When a patient is declared treatment resistant either medical or mental, it is a death sentence. Although, a medical health related death is a death of dignity. A mental health death is considered cowardly and selfish…more to come

03/12/2024

Let me tell you a story about my mother. She has been blessed by dementia. Yes, you read it right…blessed. My mom has lived a very hard life and much of her hard life has affected me. Mom has never been one to talk about Jesus. I’m sure some of her pain was somehow God’s fault. At least, we tend to blame our earthly pain on God. It doesn’t matter that man is sinful and broken, somehow God gets the blame. I asked my mother many times over the years, “If you died today would you go to heaven or hell?” Her answer was always, “Heaven, I hope, but I’ll probably go to hell.” As her daughter, her answer made me very sad.

About two years ago, mom began having noticeable, abnormal memory issues. Not age related but brain disease related. It progressed to where she is now. She is in a facility in a small town in California. Instead of remaining a victim to life, she flipped to a happy, jolly, funny, very pleasant, very kind individual. I could not have prayed for a better mother to spend her last fading memories with. I loved my mother growing up, but this mother is irresistible.

When my mom’s brain was touched by dementia, my heart ached. I was torn up about knowing my mom did not know Christ before she lost her “sound mind”. How in the world was it possible to have a changed heart a heart for Jesus in her confusion.

Who am I to doubt God. I sold Him short of His awesomeness. He has reached down in her madness and touched her heart. I believe that she is His child. I grieve knowing I doubted this miracle was possible. Much of the time, she has no clue who I am. She thinks I’m her sister but I’m convinced she knows Jesus.

01/12/2024
Life can be so hard AND we have each other to make it through. My heart has ached more in the past month in a half than ...
11/09/2023

Life can be so hard AND we have each other to make it through. My heart has ached more in the past month in a half than it has in my lifetime. I have experienced hard before…like we all have. This hard is different. My heart is screaming for relief because the pain is throbbing. My mom has dementia. I spent the past week visiting her in California. Everyday was like groundhogs day. I showed up for a visit and she greeted me like it was the first time she had seen me in years. It was the same for all six days of our visit. It was cool the first five days. Being greeted with wide eyes and a big hello actually felt good. She would say, “ Hi Diane, I didn’t know you were coming. Wow! What a surprise!” I can’t remember a time when someone was so excited to see me each day of the visit. Though day six didn’t feel so good. My heart was so heavy. I knew after I hugged her neck and walked out of her room for the last time, she may never again know who I am. The next greeting could be a blank stare. Alzheimer’s is wicked. Visiting my mom ripped my heart out. It’s not something anyone should have to go through alone. I hope I can support someone on the dementia journey. I hope I can make it a little more bearable.

04/23/2023

April 22, 2023

They just let me out of the “nut hut” yesterday. I dread the transition back into the real world. I chose to allow my friends to let others know that I was in a psychiatric hospital. I’m told I have nothing to be embarrassed or ashamed of… so why do I feel so exposed. I didn’t cause bipolar. It was passed down through my family genetics. I’m tired of the mental health stigma. It compounds the recovery time after an episode.

If I was being treated for cancer, I would have no issue with others knowing I was in the hospital. I do not have cancer. I have bipolar. People feel awkward around me knowing where I have been.

What do you say to someone who has been locked up? You say what you would say to a person who has been in the hospital for a physical ailment. My illness is very physical. It’s a brain disease that you can’t see.

I don’t regret making my experience public, but it doesn’t change how vulnerable I feel. Knowledge is power. The more I educate others about this illness, the more others can understand.

Thank you Ronnie Brake, Lisa Brake, Mary Beth Sullivan and Dave Bockmon for not making my return back to trivia awkward. you have eased my anxiety about returning to my world.

““I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.””
‭‭John‬ ‭16‬:‭33‬ ‭NIV‬‬

03/11/2023

March 11, 2023

It’s been 3 1/2 months since my last ECT treatment (electro convulsive therapy). My brain has calmed down some and I actually feel like someone who doesn’t have bipolar disorder. I feel like a normie by my definition. I’m actually considering going back to work after three years of being on disability.

I’m thinking about becoming a therapist or counselor. I obtained a masters in professional counseling in 1996. I practiced for three years, had babies, life happened and then let it all go. The boys are now adults, I’m freed up to chase my dreams. I would appreciate your prayers. I have so many hesitations about this endeavor. I’m not sure if they are reality based or plain old fear. As for now, I’m moving forward. Here am I, Lord send me.

02/12/2023

12 Feb 2023
I’m feeling grateful for my life. I’m so grateful for my family. My husband was brought up in the church and he makes his faith a priority. That’s another thing I’m grateful for. Today I am not plagued by my illness. I’m not living in unthinkable pain. God has blessed me with physical health. I have the ability to perform most reasonable tasks. Today my mental emotional health are not being challenged with distorted or depressed thoughts. I’m actually feeling blessed to be alive.

I do not take advantage of this place. I could wake up tomorrow in a very different place. I try not to ever take advantage of my good moments. I haven’t figured out what makes the difference but I try to embrace my good days.

01/25/2023

24 Jan 2023
Yesterday and today have presented with low mood. I have often wondered what causes my fluctuations. Some days I’m a prisoner of my moods. I eat, sleep and breathe bipolar moods. I haven’t done anything different yet my mood is outside the norm. When I can’t make sense of it, I try to remain present and ride it out. Other than meeting my friends for lunch, I have done nothing. I feel so heavy, tired and a bit dark. I had my weekly virtual session with my therapist. I went for a walk through the neighborhood while we talked. I hate virtual therapy but I love my therapist. The walk makes the virtual more tolerable on days like today.

At the end of today, I will count it a victory that I made it till bedtime. Bedtime is my favorite time of day because it’s time to end the day and it’s time for bed. Waking up can be difficult because I can’t predict my mood. I know we all experience different moods. My moods are on steroids. I am medicated but I still experience pretty intense mood shifts. I still experience dark thoughts.

I am a child of God. He is aware of my bipolar and He still loves me. I don’t question His power. I continue to pray for healing over my bipolar. My faith is not lacking. I am still alive today because of his sovereignty. God is bringing glory and honor to His name through my illness and I pray for healing but know if healing doesn’t happen He will continue to receive all the glory and honor.

01/22/2023

21 Jan 2023
Very restless sleep and had to get up earlier than normal. I’m losing hair at a rapid rate. I’m gonna buzz it off and tell everyone I have cancer. It’s a known thing that women taking chemo for cancer lose their hair. It’s not well known that women taking lithium for bipolar deal with hair loss.

I have a love-hate relationship with lithium. Seven years ago my psychiatrist recommended lithium for the treatment of my bipolar moods. She said, “I think it will be a game changer.” She was right. It brought me long term stability. Something I hadn’t had in forever. I loved it. Then, over time, I have watched my hair fall out. I hate it. I have struggled with the sanity over vanity dilemma. I know what it feels like to be ill with episodes. I think I will deal with the hair loss in exchange for my sanity. Besides, my husband said he would buy me a blonde wig if I go bald. That sounds fun to me. I’ve never been blonde before.

19 Jan 2023We’re more than 1/2 way through January. It has flown by. It’s gonna be 2024, 2025, 2026 before we know it. M...
01/19/2023

19 Jan 2023
We’re more than 1/2 way through January. It has flown by. It’s gonna be 2024, 2025, 2026 before we know it. My anxiety has calmed down since my IOP session with my therapist. I was concerned that my ECT treatments were wearing off and causing my suicidality to return. My therapist teased out my symptoms and helped me to recognize that my anxiety was in charge. She encouraged me to shift my focus off of the suicidality and onto something else. My anxiety was not rooted in bipolar. If I continued in the anxiety spiral I could end up in a suicidal bipolar episode.

I have been in and out of therapy my entire adult life. Therapy is a must for me. It’s another med in my mix. I have grown through my bipolar journey because of my medication and therapist working together. As with any illness, recovery is usually possible because of a combination of treatments. I think my favorite intervention is godly prayer. It’s usually free of any annoying side effects.

9 Jan 2023It’s been a little over a month since my last ECT treatment. I can’t tell you how amazing it feels not to have...
01/10/2023

9 Jan 2023
It’s been a little over a month since my last ECT treatment. I can’t tell you how amazing it feels not to have suicidal thoughts. ECT did what the doctors claimed it would do. It helped tame the suicidal ideations. I’m dealing with some cognitive issues I didn’t have pre ECT. The stability comes at a cost. My memory is compromised and my ability to recall words is even more challenged than before treatment. It’s tempting to say these issues are normal because I’m getting older. I get that, but it’s more noticeable now since ECT. Also, others have suggested that maybe the memory issues will fade in time. This is true and it’s also true that the suicidal thoughts could return in time. I’m choosing to enjoy my peace of mind for now. I will deal with the memory issues in exchange for stability.

Electroconvulsive shock therapy has been like chemo for my mental health. The treatment has some harmful effects, however it has treated a very toxic symptom of my bipolar. It has saved my life for now. Thank you tons for your continued support as I navigate this disease.

01/03/2023

January 1, 2023 - It's the beginning of a new year and I'm feeling stable. I had eleven ECT treatments total in October and November of 2022 and have been free from suicidal ideations since. Though the suicidal ideations are gone, I remember very clearly the pain that comes with the suicidal ideations. I want to live in freedom. I want to live like my days of suicidal pain are gone forever. ECT has taken pieces of my memory but unfortunately the pain bipolar has brought me is still very much alive. The memories haunt me. I fear the day when the next episode will hit. Maybe 2023 will be a year absent from mental illness handicaps. I pray I experience the complete joy found in having a relationship with Jesus. I have bipolar disorder but I do not define myself by the illness. I am a child of God.

10/20/2022

Hey Friends, I’m posting another one of my vulnerable mental health updates. I started ECT (electroconvulsive shock therapy) yesterday with the hopes of it resetting my brain. Back in April, my bipolar kicked into hypomania. I had more energy than the average person, talked more, needed less sleep, and annoyed Tim. Honestly, hypomania can be fun. My energy is contagious. I become very social and ideas pop into my head and things happen. It becomes a problem when I start making big decisions based off of my wild ideas. I get things done but at a cost. When my bipolar takes a turn and I crash and burn or the energy becomes dark, it sets me up for failure. I lived hypomanic for 5 months. I had both happy and sad super charged moods. In mania, I feel everything to the fullest. I live at a 10.

Two months ago, my psychiatrist increased a med for the second time and within days it completely killed the mania. My pattern is usually hypomania, a few days of baseline and then an eternal dive into depression. Towards the end of my hypomania, my will to live took a nosedive. I have struggled with suicidal ideations for two months. It’s not just passive thoughts of wanting to die. It’s coming up with a plan and figuring out the best time to execute it. It’s serious business. It’s very similar to my mindset before my su***de attempt on January 6, 2020.

My psychiatrist has been recommending ECT for three months. She said my brain needs to be reset. My last ECT treatment was a success. I was suicidal ideation free for 2 years. That’s awesome for someone who lives with chronic suicidal ideations. My chronic si’s present like a running current of suicidal thoughts playing all day everyday. Sometimes they’re aggressive and sometimes they’re annoying.

Today has been a recovery day. My brain feels like it has been in a blender for awhile. I woke up feeling really nauseous and my right jaw was in pain. It hurt to open and close my mouth. ECT induces a seizure so I guess I bit down pretty hard on the soft block. It’s still tender today. The nausea disappeared pretty quickly after the medicine was pushed through my
IV. ECT is bipolar chemo. It’s aggressive but it’s effective at treating the episode. It was super hard coming to terms with this treatment method. It is quite controversial even among my circle. I wanted everyone on the same page, but that didn’t happen.

I will have between 9-12 ECT treatments over the next month. When I had treatments 2 1/2 years ago, I had some cognitive issues for about two months. I had a very spotty memory of that time period. I’m expecting the same this go round. I’m not allowed to drive until a week after my last treatment. It’s pretty serious business. If I think too much about it, I could easily sabotage my treatment.

Tons of prayer has gone into this decision. If God can use chemo for cancer treatment to promote more life, then he can also use ECT for this bipolar patient to buy me more time with my family and friends.

10/07/2022

Brennan, my senior:

This 10 day senior parent challenge has been so fun. I kind of strayed from the challenge and did my own thing. Brennan is my baby and he officially became an adult on 9/12/22. All my boys are blessings and I can say many wonderful things about them, but today my focus is on my journey with Brennan. God truly raised him. I was diagnosed with bipolar I disorder when he was only 16 months old. My moods shifted out of balance when he was a toddler. I started having disturbing thoughts like why did God give me an ugly baby. Why did he give my friends pretty babies and me an ugly baby. How could I think such thoughts. I was sick and God used Brennan to get me help. I absolutely adore Brennan now. I look back at his baby pictures and think he was so cute. He was beautiful but I didn’t see it then. I can’t go back and change my thoughts but they make sense with the diagnosis. The stressors of caring for a toddler were too much for my mental illness. The most beautiful baby in the world would have been ugly to me. I’m thankful for that very hard time period in my life. Having Brennan ultimately saved my life by forcing me to get the help I needed.

Brennan has always marched to the beat of a different drummer. As a toddler, he wandered away from the rest of us. He got into cabinets with safety locks and opened medicine bottles with child safety seals. He ate candles, lipstick and bars of soap. He rarely fussed about anything. He would disappear at events and show up when it was time to go. We lost Brennan at Disney when he was three. After a Disney wide search, he showed up and said, “Dad, I right here!” To him, he was never lost.

Brennan makes me laugh. Not much stresses him. It’s a McDaniel quality for sure. He’s not a big talker, but he will answer most any question I ask. Physical touch is his love language. I don’t get a lot of hugs from him but he likes to wrestle with me. He’s way stronger than me so he wins every time. I don’t understand why he doesn’t pick on someone his own size. I think he picks on me like his big brothers used to pick on him.

Brennan has turned out pretty amazing. I give God the credit. Bipolar kept me from being an amazing parent, but it couldn’t keep me from loving him fiercely. I’m thankful I’m the only mama Brennan knows. I’m not perfect, but who is. I have loved him with my whole heart. I have given a piece of my heart to each of my boys. I honestly feel like they have done the same to me. God kept me here for the boys. My bipolar hasn’t gotten easier as the boys have grown, but God does continue to provide effective treatment options. I take advantage of all forms of help (spiritual, physical, mental and psychological). I look forward to celebrating Brennan’s high school graduation. What a well earned accomplishment! Participating in this challenge has been so rewarding. Honoring Brennan has been the best.

My former pastor is an author for the Christian index.  He wrote and published an article about my book.  I’m so encoura...
09/23/2022

My former pastor is an author for the Christian index. He wrote and published an article about my book. I’m so encouraged by his words.

MARIETTA, Ga. – As a pastor for over 40 years I encountered several people who were suffering from bipolar disorder. My heart went out to them because I could tell that they were in a merciless struggle for survival. They seemed to live at the mercy of their impulses. They were easily agitated and...

Some of you may remember me posting my current mood episode LIVE.  Believe it or not it’s been six plus months since the...
09/17/2022

Some of you may remember me posting my current mood episode LIVE. Believe it or not it’s been six plus months since the beginning of that episode. Six months later and I’m finally at stability. I am quite tired and I am grateful to report that I am still here to appreciate life with my friends and family.

Part of my bipolar disease includes fierce suicidal ideations. Hopefully many of you can’t relate but if you can, I’m so sorry. I know it’s easy to judge someone who struggles with these. It’s not easy for me to turn the thoughts away. They are very convincing and my brain turns on me. Call it what you wish (demon oppression, weak in character, sin)…it’s real. Please, pray for me or anyone if you know the brain is attacking itself. It’s definitely more beneficial than judging the moment.

In six months, I’ve had four medication adjustments , a medication insert and several emergency psychiatry and therapy appointments. I was approved for (PHP) a partial hospitalization program for 6-8 weeks and prescribed (ECT) electro convulsive therapy and Ketamine infusion treatments.

I don’t want to eliminate the effectiveness of prayer therapy. I’m very grateful for all the prayer support of my family and friends. I have been predominantly hypomanic. I have had more energy, racing thoughts, hyper verbal, physical urges to bite(poor Tim), hyper-textative(I’ve been blowing up my therapist’s text box and my psychiatrist’s email).

I have been to church once in the past six months. Sitting still and listening was a challenge. I didn’t want my energy focused on behavior rather than appreciating the message. Sharon Rooke came up with a great suggestion. She thought it would be helpful for me to help in the preschool rather than sit still in service. I haven’t tried it yet.

I’m encouraged because I think I have finally arrived at stability. The Beast is at bay once again. It is mid-September. I’m gonna spend the next few weeks resting and recovering. I’m looking forward to appreciating what God has so graciously given me…LIFE.

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