04/03/2025
I got too comfortable with being uncomfortable, and I didn’t like it.
I spent years of my life in a toxic marriage that I knew didn’t serve me and towards the end, I was coming to the realization that things would never get better.
I realized that if I wanted to live a happy and fulfilling life, I had to be the one to initiate big changes and not wait on others to change their hurtful ways.
The year before I left my marriage, I remember one particular day when I took a long drive alone. I wrote about it in my journal. There’s something about being on the open road and seeing the clear blue sky that puts my mind into a reflective state.
Maybe long drives do the same for you. Whether you’re driving or riding along, just looking out the window and enjoying the weather and watching the world go by or travel with you may put your mind into a more reflective state where you can think with a clear head.
On that long ride home I made a big decision and a promise to myself.
Being that our kids moved out of the house, we had an empty bedroom, so I decided to move into the empty room so I would no longer have to share a room with my spouse. The move would help me get into the mindset of making a separation from him seem possible.
I also gave myself a serious peptalk.
I thought about my ‘new, fabulous life,’ as I wrote, that was waiting for me. I thought about my kids that was watching me, even though they didn’t live at home anymore. I got tired of sitting on the sidelines of my own life and not being an active player.
I made the choice to no longer be comfortable with being uncomfortable in my life. I was feeling stuck in how my life was instead of taking action to change it.
I did switch bedrooms. Obviously, my spouse wasn’t happy about it, but I didn’t care. My sanity was at stake.
During that last year before I left the house, it helped me believe that separating from my spouse was not only possible, but necessary.
Leaving would give me a second chance to create a happier, healthier and more fulfilling life for myself.
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