08/26/2026
Today has been a day of reflection, lots of emotions and second chances. I got to share some good news with my stepdad and process much.
20 years ago today I sat with my father as he died in my arms. I still have many flashbacks from the hell he went through for months as I helped take care of him and as he died from a horrendous virus. The biggest one, carrying his co**se out of the house because the men sent weren’t strong enough to carry him out. A blessing but lots of flashbacks and guilt, shame and remorse that I am working to release.
Today I was also told by my surgeon, 6 months post operation that I have no restrictions and can go back to life as normal after 9 years of living in bone on bone hip pain with the last 5 years of a living hell.
And lastly, today my surgeon told me that I can practice yoga once again. When he told me that I had tears come to my eyes.
This photo was taken 9 years ago, right after being certified as a yoga teacher on the banks of the Ganges River in Northern India. 3 weeks later my hip went out and it went downhill from there. The same year I left my career in LA, sold my home and searched to find a new home which ended up just north of Nashville. I’m not from here, I’ve felt like dusting off my sandals and moving to next town, but I have been fortunate enough to meet some great kin folk here who have welcomed me in and I am blessed for that.
People may judge for leaving LA, for seeking my own path, for literally starting all over again, heck, even for the practice of yoga, but it’s all led me to a higher calling that brought me closer to God with lessons only taught by such a Teacher- pain & suffering, but more so blessings, gratitude & learning to find happiness in the surrendering of the pain.
Now, more than ever I am striving to do my best, get out of God’s way and live a better life.
So today I stand, pouring a glass for my father, celebrating new beginnings & remembering the lessons that I’ve been taught.
I thought I knew it all but that was my ego. The first lesson of yoga in Sanskrit is “atha yoga anushasunam” which translates to now the teaching begins. Why yes, yes it does.