09/22/2026
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ุญุถุฑู ุถุจุทู ูุทูู ู
ุชูุจูุณู ุจุงูุบูุงุก
A Homeland Caught in the Act of Singing
ุจููู
ุงูู
ุนู
ุงุฑู ูุงููุงุชุจ ุนู
ุงุฏ ุฏุฑููุด โ ูููููุฑู
By Architect and Writer Imad Darouich โ New York
ุดุงูุฏุชู ุงูุญูู ู
ุฑุชูู.
I watched the concert twice.
ูู ุงูุฃูููุ ูู
ุฃุณุชุทุน ุฅุซุจุงุช ูุฌูุฏู ูู ูููููุฑู.
The first time, I could not prove I was in New York.
ูุงู ุฌุณุฏู ุนูู ุงููุฑุณู.
My body was in the chair.
ููู ููุจู ุบุงุฏุฑ ุฏูู ุฃูุฑุงู.
But my heart had left without papers.
ุนุจุฑ ุงูุญุฏูุฏ ุฏุงุฎู ู
ููุงู.
It crossed the border inside a mawwal.
ูุญูู ุณุฃููู ุนู ูุฌูุชูุ ุฃุฎุฑุฌ ู
ูุชุงุญูุง.
When asked its destination, it produced a key.
ูุงููุง: ุงูุจูุช ูู
ูุนุฏ ู
ูุฌูุฏูุง.
They said: the house no longer exists.
ูุงู: ููุฐุง ุฃุญู
ู ุงูู
ูุชุงุญ.
It said: that is why I carry the key.
ู
ูุธููู ุฎูู ุงูุถููุน
A Clerk Behind the Ribs
ูู ุฏุงุฎูู ู
ูุธููู ูุฏูู
.
An old clerk lives inside me.
ุนูููู ุงูุฎูู ู
ูุฐ ุฒู
ู.
Fear appointed him long ago.
ู
ูู
ูุชู ุชุฏููู ุงูุฃูุฑุงุญ.
His job is to inspect moments of joy.
ููู
ุง ุงุจุชุณู
ุชูุ ุทูุจ ูุซููุฉ.
Whenever I smile, he demands a document.
ูููู
ุง ุงุดุชูุชูุ ูุชุญ ุชุญููููุง.
Whenever I long for home, he opens an inquiry.
ุชูู ุงููููุฉุ ุณู
ุน ุฃุตุงูุฉ.
That night, he heard Assala.
ููุถ ููููู ุงูุตูุช.
He stood up to stop the sound.
ููุฌุฏ ุงูุจุงุจ ูุชุญููู ุฅูู ูุงูุฐุฉ.
He found the door turning into a window.
ุจุญุซ ุนู ุฎุชู
ุงูู
ูุน.
He searched for the stamp of prohibition.
ูุงู ุงูุฎุชู
ูุตููู.
The stamp was applauding.
ูุฃูู ู
ุฑุฉุ ุชุนุทููุช ุงูุฏุงุฆุฑุฉ.
For the first time, the office ceased to function.
ูู
ุฑูุช ุณูุฑูุง ุฅูู ุตุฏุฑู.
And Syria entered my chest.
ุดุงูุฏู ูู
ูุณุชุทุน ุงูุดูุงุฏุฉ
A Witness Unable to Testify
ูู
ุฃุดุงูุฏ ุงูุญูู ูุงู
ููุง ูู ุงูู
ุฑุฉ ุงูุฃููู.
I did not fully see the concert the first time.
ูุงูุช ุฏู
ุนุฉู ุชุญุฌุจ ุงูุฃูุฑูุณุชุฑุง.
A tear obscured the orchestra.
ููุงู ุจูุชู ูุฏูู
ููู ุฃู
ุงู
ุงูู
ุบูููุฉ.
An old house stood in front of the singer.
ุทูุจุชู ู
ูู ุฃู ูุชูุญูู.
I asked it to move aside.
ูุงู: ุงูุชุธุฑุชู ูุฐุง ุงูุตูุช ุฃูุซุฑ ู
ูู.
It said: I have waited for this voice longer than you.
ูุชุฑูุชูู.
So I let it stay.
ููุจููุช ุงูู
ูุฏูู
ุฉ ุฃูุฏู
ููุฉู ูู ุงูุญููู.
Demolished houses have seniority in longing.
ูููููุงูุฐ ุงูุชู ููุฏุช ุฌุฏุฑุงููุง ุญููู ูู ุงูู
ุดุงูุฏุฉ.
Windows that have lost their walls have a right to watch.
ุงูุชูู ุงูุญูู.
The concert ended.
ูุจููุชู ุนุงุฌุฒูุง ุนู ูุตูู.
I remained unable to describe it.
ููุชู ุดุงูุฏูุง.
I had been a witness.
ููู ููุจู ุฃุฎูู ุงูุฃุฏููุฉ.
But my heart had hidden the evidence.
ูู ุงูู
ุฑุฉ ุงูุซุงููุฉโฆ ุฃุญุถุฑุชู ุงูู
ุณุทุฑุฉ
The Second Timeโฆ I Brought a Ruler
ุฃูุง ู
ุนู
ุงุฑู.
I am an architect.
ุฃู
ุถูุชู ุนู
ุฑู ุฃูููุน ุงููุฑุงุบ ุจุฃู ูุตูุฑ ุจูุชูุง.
I have spent my life persuading emptiness to become a home.
ูุฃูููุน ุงูุฌุฏุงุฑ ุจุฃู ูุชุฑู ู
ูุงููุง ูุจุงุจ.
And persuading walls to leave room for a door.
ุนุฏุชู ุฅูู ุงูุญูู ุจุนููู ุชูุญุต.
I returned to the concert with an examining eye.
ุฃุฑุฏุชู ุฃู ุฃุนุฑู ููู ุดูููุฏ ูุฐุง ุงูุฃุซุฑ.
I wanted to know how this effect had been built.
ุฃูู ุชุณุชูุฏ ุงููุจุฑุฉุ
What supports a note?
ููู ูุญู
ู ุงูู
ูุงู ููู ูุฐู ุงูู
ุณุงูุฉุ
How does a mawwal bear so much distance?
ูู
ู ุณู
ุญ ููุฐุง ุงูุตู
ุช ุฃู ูููู ุนู
ูููุงุ
Who authorized this silence to be so deep?
ุฑูุนุชู ู
ุณุทุฑุชู ุฅูู ุงููุญู.
I raised my ruler to the melody.
ูุงู
ุชุฏูุช ุญุชู ุฏู
ุดู.
It stretched all the way to Damascus.
ุฃุนุฏุชููุง ุฅูู ุงูุทุงููุฉ.
I set it back on the table.
ูุงูุช ู
ุจูููุฉ.
It was wet.
ุญูุฌุฑุฉู ุชุฎุงูู ุงูู
ุฎุทูุท
A Voice That Defies the Plan
ูู ุดูุก ูู ุฏุงุฎูู ูุงู ู
ุนุฏููุง ูุงุญุชู
ุงู ุงูุญุฒู.
Everything inside me had been designed to withstand sorrow.
ุฌุฏุฑุงูู ุณู
ููุฉ.
Thick walls.
ุฃุจูุงุจู ุซูููุฉ.
Heavy doors.
ูู
ุฎุงุฑุฌ ุทูุงุฑุฆ ูุง ุชุคุฏูู ุฅูู ุฃุญุฏ.
Emergency exits leading to no one.
ุซู
ุบููุช ุฃุตุงูุฉ.
Then Assala sang.
ูุญุฏุซ ุฎููู ูู ุงูู
ุจูู.
And the building developed a fault.
ุจุฏุฃ ุงูุถูุก ูุฏุฎู ู
ู ู
ูุงุถุน ุงูุฃูู
.
Light began entering through the places of pain.
ูุณูุท ุฌุฏุงุฑู ููุชู ุฃุนุฏูู ุถุฑูุฑุฉ.
A wall I had considered essential came down.
ุฎูููุ ูุฌุฏุชู ุถุญูุชู.
Behind it, I found my laughter.
ูุจุฑุชู ูุซูุฑูุง ููู ุชูุชุธุฑ ููุงู.
I had grown much older while it waited there.
ูู
ุชุนุงุชุจูู.
It did not reproach me.
ุทูุจุชู ุฃู ุฃูุชุญ ุงููุงูุฐุฉ.
It asked me to open the window.
ุญูู ุงุณุชูุฏุนูุช ุงูุฃุฑุถ ุฅูู ุงูู
ุณุฑุญ
When the Earth Was Summoned Onstage
ูุงูุช ุงูุฏุจูุฉ ุชุถุฑุจ ุงูุฃุฑุถ.
The dabke struck the earth.
ูุชุฑุฏู ุงูุฃุฑุถ ู
ู ุชุญุช ูุฏู
ูู.
And the earth answered beneath my feet.
ุฃูุง ูู ูููููุฑู.
I was in New York.
ูููู ุงูุชุฒู ูุฐุง ุงูุจูุงุทุ
How, then, did these tiles tremble?
ูุถุนุชู ุฃุฐูู ุนูู ุงูู
ุณุงูุฉ.
I pressed my ear against the distance.
ุณู
ุนุชู ุญุงุฑุงุชู ุชุชูุงุฏูู.
I heard neighborhoods calling to one another.
ูุณูุงูู
ู ุชูุฒู ุจุญุซูุง ุนู ุฃุตุญุงุจูุง.
And stairways descending in search of their people.
ุนูู ุงูู
ุณุฑุญุ ูุชูู ูุณูุฏ ูุชููุง.
Onstage, one shoulder supported another.
ูุงูุฎุทูุฉ ุงููุฑุฏููุฉ ุชุชุนููู
ุตูุบุฉ ุงูุฌู
ุน.
And the solitary step learned its plural form.
ููุฐุง ุฑุฃูุชู ุณูุฑูุง.
That is how I saw Syria.
ุฃุตูุงุชูุง ุชุญุชูุธ ุจุฃุณู
ุงุฆูุง.
Voices keeping their names.
ูุชุฌุฏ ู
ูุงููุง ูู ุฃุบููุฉ ูุงุญุฏุฉ.
And finding room within one song.
ุทูุจู ุชุฑุฎูุตู ุจุงููุฑุญ
An Application for Permission to Rejoice
ูู ู
ูุชุตู ุฃุบููุฉุ ุจุงุบุชุชูู ุงุจุชุณุงู
ุฉ.
Halfway through a song, a smile caught me unprepared.
ุดุนุฑุชู ุจุงูุฐูุจ.
I felt guilty.
ุงูุชูุชูู ุฅูู ุฃุญุฒุงูู.
I turned toward my sorrows.
ูุงูุช ุฌุงูุณุฉู ู
ุนู.
They were sitting beside me.
ูู
ูุบุจ ู
ููุง ุฃุญุฏ.
Not one was missing.
ููุชู: ูู ูุญูู ููุ
I asked: am I allowed?
ูู
ุชูุฌุจ.
They did not answer.
ุฃุฒุงุญุชู ูููููุง ู
ู ุซูููุง.
They shifted a little of their weight.
ูุชุฑูุชู ูู ู
ูุงููุง ุฃุชูููุณ ููู.
And left me room to breathe.
ุนูุฏูุง ููู
ุชู ุดูุฆูุง.
Then I understood something.
ุญุชู ุงูุญุฒู ูุฎุชูู ุฅุฐุง ุฃุบูููุง ุงูููุงูุฐ.
Even sorrow suffocates when we close the windows.
ูุญุชู ุงูุฐุงูุฑุฉ ุชุญุชุงุฌ ุฅูู ููุงุก.
Even memory needs air.
ุงูู
ุญุถุฑ ุงูุฃุฎูุฑ
The Final Report
ููุฐุง ุดุงูุฏุชู ุงูุญูู ู
ุฑุชูู.
That is why I watched the concert twice.
ูู ุงูุฃูููุ ูู
ุฃุนุฑู ู
ุง ุงูุฐู ุญุฏุซ ูู.
The first time, I did not know what had happened to me.
ููู ุงูุซุงููุฉุ ุฃู
ุณูุชู ุจุงูุฎูุท.
The second time, I found the thread.
ุชุชุจูุนุชูู ู
ู ุญูุฌุฑุฉ ุฃุตุงูุฉ.
I followed it from Assalaโs voice.
ุฅูู ุงูุฃูุฑูุณุชุฑุง.
To the orchestra.
ุฅูู ุฃูุฏุงู
ุงูุฑุงูุตูู.
To the dancersโ feet.
ุฅูู ุฐูู ุงูุจุงุจ ุงูู
ูุตูุฏ ูู ุฏุงุฎูู.
To that sealed door inside me.
ููุงู ุชููููุช.
There I stopped.
ูุงู ู
ูุธูู ุงูุฎูู ูุฌูุณ ุนูู ุงูุฃุฑุถ.
The clerk of fear was sitting on the floor.
ุฃูุฑุงูู ู
ุจุนุซุฑุฉ.
His papers lay scattered.
ุณุฃููู: ู
ุงุฐุง ุฃูุชุจ ูู ุงูุชูุฑูุฑุ
He asked me: what shall I write in the report?
ููุชู: ุงูุชุจ ู
ุง ุฑุฃูุช.
I said: write what you saw.
ูุงู: ูู ูุตุฏูููุง.
He said: they will not believe it.
ููุชู: ุงูุชุจ.
I said: write.
ูู ูุฐู ุงููููุฉุ ูุฃุซูุงุก ุจุซู ุญููู ุบูุงุฆููุ
On this night, during the broadcast of a concert,
ููุชุญ ุจุงุจู ูู ุดููุฉู ุจูููููุฑู.
a door opened in a New York apartment.
ุฎุฑุฌ ู
ูู ุฑุฌูู ู
ุซููู ุจุงูุณููุงุช.
A man burdened with years walked through it.
ูุฏุฎู ุฅูู ุจูุชู ูู ุฏู
ุดู.
And entered his home in Damascus.
ูู
ูุบุงุฏุฑ ูุฑุณููู.
He never left his chair.
ููู
ูุนุฏ ุงููุฑุณูู ูู ู
ูุงูู.
And the chair was no longer where it had been.
ุนู
ุงุฏ ุฏุฑููุด โ ูููููุฑู
Imad Darouich โ New York