10/31/2025
My beautiful boy is home. I had been dreading this day because it makes it real …and I’m still not ready to accept that he’s gone or to process the enormous loss. The grief and heartache is all consuming. How did this happen so fast 💔
I keep expecting him to follow me upstairs, to lay his big heavy head on my feet when I’m working, to just come and check on me after he’s woken from a deep sleep. I miss his snoring at night - I slept better with that. I miss everything about him but most of all knowing I will never get to hug him again tears me apart.
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