01/11/2025
Good morning Kay
I invited a lady over for the first time last week but after we encountered, I got scared and haven’t had the urge to call her again.
I’ve blocked her. She’s been texting but I’m still confused and need your audience help.
So she came over for the first time, not to sleep over tho. It was to come and go. I know how important first impression is so I decided to use some delay spray so I could last longer before cu***ng.
For almost an hour we were knacking. Then she suddenly grabbed my neck so tight with both hands and froze. She actually froze — like she became very hard and was just shaking while suffocating me. She became so strong that all my efforts to free myself were fruitless. I struggled to breath and I kept trying to remove her hands from my neck but she held me so firmly. It felt like I’d been grabbed by the neck by a military man.
She couldn’t even see or hear me. I tried and the harder I tried, the weaker I became. I cried and actually regretted inviting a woman over before going blank. I thought I was actually going to die. I was regretting so many things but the woman in me was what I regretted more.
About an hour later I woke up and saw her sitting next to me all dressed up. She smiled when I woke up and said, “you passed out while I was cu***ng, or were you cu***ng too? Was it because I chocked you?”
So she actually strangled me till I passed out and called it, “chocking”. I saw stars, a lot of them. I felt really bad. I prayed in my head and shed tears of regret before going off.
It could have been my last moment on it.
When she left, I asked her what that was and her response was that, “that is how I am when I am cu***ng, you shouldn’t have let me hold your neck”.
So she blamed me for allowing her hold my neck when I didn’t know anything like that was going to happen.
Whatever it is or it was, I just thank God so much that I survived. I honestly don’t want to have anything doing with her again. I think it was just a miracle that I made it. I could have been dead.
I don’t know, I feel ending things with her is the best thing. Now that I have a second chance to life, I think I’m just going to focus on developing myself and getting a woman that is responsible to marry. I’m never dating until I’m ready to settle down. There’s actually nothing good in jumping from one woman to another.
From love&pills
