01/30/2022
The only thing you can do is be honest” is what my sister, , told me upon my meltdown over how one finds the courage to actually express your most vulnerable emotions through an artistic medium and then be brave enough to let people see it.
I was a music video director and a videographer for companies for years. I’d been comfortable supporting someone else’s vision up until this point. So when I started writing my own stuff, I freaked out. I kept thinking. “Who am I? And what if no one cares?
I have to admit that I straight up cried today. With every step of this journey, I’d hoped some fairy god mother or multimillion dollar studio would swoop in and make it easier once I showed them proof of concept in either a script or the short film or five more episodes in a miniseries ready to go on Netflix.
I know in my heart, though, that while it’s normal to hope that someone will give you a permission slip or a green light to keep going. Often, no one will. So you just have to keep going anyway.
My series is now complete, and while there were a million stops and starts, hopes and dreams that I’ve had to keep recallibrating, I am so grateful for the people who have showed me that it’s never a fairy godmother who waves a wand. It’s a community of people who contribute little bits of what they can. It’s not a big leap, but 10,000 baby steps that lay the building blocks and pave the way to your next project that will probably take the same amount of work and will feel like starting from zero again!
So as I’m locked in my house for three days straight making Instagram memes, then deleting them all and reposting them because clearly that wasn’t the right social media strategy (but it’s just fu***ng me guessing how to promote this thing!) I ask you to please come on this journey with me.
I’m pulling back the curtain and letting everyone know that I don’t know what happens now, but I’ve put very last shred of myself into building this thing, top to bottom.
So go to the link in my bio, then go to my YouTube channel, subscribe and enjoy this content I made and am finally ready to share with the world! I hope you like it! But if you don’t, thats ok too!