04/20/2026
"She was 8 months pregnant" — What German soldiers did to her before giving birth
There are some things you can't forget, even when you try. The sound of boots pounding the wooden floor of your house at three in the morning. The smell of gun oil mixed with male sweat. The sensation of a rough hand squeezing your arm while another pushes your six-month-old belly as if it were an obstacle in the way.
My name is Victoire de la Croix. I am 90 years old and for sixty of them I have kept a secret that must now be revealed. Not because I want to, but because the dead cannot speak and someone must bear witness to what happened to them. When German soldiers dragged me from my home that night in March 1944, I was 33 weeks pregnant.
My son was moving so much that I could barely sleep. He was kicking my ribs as if he already wanted to get out, as if he knew something terrible was about to happen. I didn't know it yet, but he was right. What they did to me before the birth has no name in any language I know, and what they did afterwards was worse.
They didn't take me alone. There were 10 of us women that night, all young, all beautiful enough to attract attention. Five of them were pregnant like me. The others were virgins, fiancées, young mothers. We were chosen like one chooses fruit at a market. They went into houses with lists, lists containing our names. This means that someone from our own village had delivered us.
Someone we knew, someone who used to have coffee in our kitchen. I lived in Tulle, a working-class town in central France known for its arms factories. My father worked at the arms factory. My mother sewed uniforms for the German army under forced occupation. We had learned to lower our eyes when soldiers passed by, not to answer when they spoke to us, to pretend not to exist.
But that night, pretending wasn't enough. Henry, my fiancé, tried to protect me. He threw himself in front of the soldier who was pulling me towards the door. I heard the sound of the rifle butt hitting his head before I saw the blood, then silence. My mother screamed. My father remained motionless, his hands raised, trembling.
I looked back one last time before being pushed into the truck. I saw my house. I saw the window of my room where the baby's layette was folded on the dresser. I watched my whole life disappear as the truck's engine swallowed up any chance of return. Inside the truck, there were 17 of us crammed together.
Some were crying, others were in a state of shock. A 16-year-old girl vomited on my feet. I held my belly with both hands and prayed that my son would not be born there in the darkness among terrified strangers. We didn't know where we were going. We didn't know why. We only knew that when Germans take women away in the middle of the night, they usually don't come back the same.
The journey lasted for hours. When the truck finally stopped, I heard voices in German outside, short, sharp orders. The tarpaulin was pulled down and the light from the lanterns blinded us. We were forced to get off. Some stumbled. I almost fell. But a hand grabbed my elbow. It was n't kindness, it was efficiency.
They needed us to arrive unharmed. We were in a labor camp on the outskirts of Tulle. I knew this place. Before the war, it was a farm. Now, barbed wire fences, watchtowers, rotten wooden barracks, the smell of sewage and burnt flesh. There were other women there, French, Polish, a Russian, very young, all with that empty look that I would only understand later.
The look of those who no longer expect anything. If you're listening to me now, you might be thinking this is just another war story, another sad tale that will end with a comforting lesson. This will not be the case because what happened in the following weeks offers no possible comfort. And if you think you've already heard worse stories, I guarantee you haven't heard mine yet.
We were separated the first night. The pregnant women were taken to a separate barracks. They said we would receive special care. A wave of relief washed over me for a second, just a second, because when the door of that barracks closed behind us, I realized there was no bed, no blanket. There was only one German officer, tall with light eyes, smoking a cigarette, observing us as one might assess cattle.
He spoke fluent French without an accent. It was worse in a way. This meant that he understood every word we said, every plea, every cry, and that he chose to ignore it. He walked slowly between the five of us, stopping in front of each belly, touching with his fingertips as if he were testing the ripeness of a fruit.
When he arrived in front of me, he stopped. He remained there, motionless, staring at me. I did not look away. I don't know why. Perhaps pride, perhaps defiance, perhaps just frozen fear. He smiled. It wasn't a kind smile. It was the smile of someone who had just won something. He pointed at me and said a word in German to the soldier next to him.
The soldier grabbed my arm and led me outside. The other four stayed behind. I heard their shouting begin even before I left the barracks. Even today, I don't know what happened to them that night. I don't know if they fared worse or better than me. I was taken to another building, smaller and cleaner.
There was a bed, there was a toilet, there was a window with a curtain. For a foolish moment, I thought that maybe, just maybe, I would be spared, that he had chosen me to protect me, that my big belly, my baby living inside me, would be a sufficient shield. I was young and naive. I still believed that monsters respected boundaries.
He entered the room two hours later. He locked the door behind him. He took off his jacket slowly, folding it carefully onto the chair. He lit another cigarette. He looked at me. I was sitting on the bed, my hands on my stomach, trying to make myself smaller. He approached. He sat down next to me. He placed his hand on my face. Some was hot.
His fingers smelled of to***co and metal. "You are beautiful," he said in perfect French. "Your baby will be born here under my care. You'll thank me for that."
I did not thank him that night, nor during the 27 nights that followed. If you are listening to this story now, wherever you are in the world, know that every word I say is real, every detail, every horror. And if something inside you tells you to stop listening, I understand. But I couldn't stop living.
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