03/29/2025
I've known men and women who have felt too feminine with me, and have been told for years that I'm too masculine with how I sound (especially on multi-player games) and act (I'd rather play in the dirt). Know what? Good.
This is part of the problem, y'all. I love my femininity, and I love my masculinity. I lean into both of my equally beautiful sides and am learning to live with the others whom popped up due to decades of physical and psychological abuse, so i can love myself and those who show me love. If you can't see me or don't want to understand me, I'm down for that. I don't need to be around those committed to misunderstanding me or tolerating me. If we aren't rejoicing and grieving as familiar and kindred spirits, we don't have to...I've learned to live without and I'm grateful for those who take a chance on this broken, twisted, bat-sh*t crazy chick, and honestly don't need anything that's not for me.
Be uncomfortable and be cautious. The crone is awakening and she's a bit unhinged. She knows who had harmed the maiden and what the mother has done.
Love ❤️
Simple as that.
On that note... I'm sorry, I haven't been Live recently. I've been transitioning jobs and reevaluating some relationships. I had my first episode of dissociation in 2009, and my mental and physical health have been in a relative decline since, with diagnoses stacking and conditions worsening, I've been working with my medical team for the last 9 years on maintenance. Last year, my Medicare experienced some major changes, and the switch took most of my Drs out of my network. Thankfully, this week, I learned that many of them, including my primary, have been added, and I have an appointment soon to get the ball rolling again!
I've also started a new job, and thoroughly enjoy the atmosphere of the place and the acquaintance of my new boss, who's an old work associate.
I'm hoping to have the mental capacity to stream again soon, and am still working on upgrades! Life is a process, and sometimes it feels more like a steaming cowpie than a field of fresh spring flowers, but those who hang in there with me are super fu***ng troopers.
Thank you 😊
Kairi Kaimana
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