09/05/2025
Kirkus said: "Absurd humor overpowers tenderness in a playful but chaotic novel." Coming at the end of a not-really-bad review, it pretty much torpedoes what came before it. But I don't necessarily know if that's not the reaction I was going for. Yes, it has its tender moments, but I didn't want it to be ALL tenderness. Tenderness is boring. Tenderness doesn't shake people up! I think what disappoints me most is that they see it as a "coming-out" novel, which I don't think it is. I've already written a coming-out novel, I didn't want to do another one. But I guess with this book I can't make people see what I was trying to say. One thing I'm saying is that life IS absurd. What does absurd mean? "Contrary to all reason or common sense; laughably foolish." Well, I want people to laugh when they read this book, not just make them feel all warm and cuddly inside. 'Warm and cuddly' is not moving. So, in a way, the reviewer did get it, they just didn't put it in a positive way. There are things in the review I can use with ellipses - "A playful but chaotic novel" could be one, for that matter.
Part of my problem, I guess, is that I don't have an audience focus. Well, like Stephen King, I wrote the story for ME, not an audience; if the reader likes what I have to say, that's terrific. But I didn't want to be 'normal;' normal, to me, is not creative. And you have to figure, somebody like Samuel Beckett, who had plenty of detractors, wasn't going for 'normal' when he wrote WAITING FOR GODOT. (Not that I'm comparing myself with Beckett.) So - what next? I will have to go out and sell it, do readings and signings and hope people listen. But I'm already working on the next one, so it won't be long before I have to let this one go. But what a year it's been!