09/15/2026
🪞Allow Me To Be Transparent🪞
There are different types of therapy: therapist-led, group, retail, art, music, journaling, animal, spiritual, mindlessly scrolling social media, etc.
You can re-hash stuff in your head until you’re or you can talk about it/write it out, dwell on it in that moment and then work on moving on with your life after the release. This is my therapy.
Contrary to popular belief, the late rapper DMX’s infamous song is not titled “Y’all Gone Make Me Lose My Mind Up In Here” but it might as well be! When it’s applicable to my state of mind, I’m not thinking “Party Up (Up In Here)”. Know what I mean?
Today, I felt that sentiment to my core. Once upon a time in the not so distant past, I had clawed my way into a peaceful existence that was well earned after getting past some gnarly life-mountains. I remember feeling happy and at peace with a firm grip on the ride that is my current life.
➡️➡️Fast forward➡️➡️
to today and before 8am I’d experienced the following….
•My little dude woke me up at 3am. After 6 hours of sleep, he was ready to start his day and I was expected to be an active participant.
•As he peacefully played, I started and finished a project to give to his teacher only to realize that when the printer kept telling me that it was “low on ink”, it wasn’t playing. A blank sheet came out.
•Then, despite being up FOREVER, I somehow only had 40 minutes to get his food prepped (hubby saw me up and assumed I had it handled) AND us dressed and out of the door on time. In the rush, I brushed my teeth but judging by how my face feels, I neglected to wash it after realizing I was still in my pjs 5 minutes prior to departure.
•My kiddo already moves like molasses when getting ready (and likes to jokingly move outside of my reach so I have to beckon him back) and today he complained about having to wear shoes as I suffered from a hot flash that threatened to take me out. After checking the shoes (and finding nothing amiss) I finally got them on his feet for the walk to the car only for him to remove them immediately once inside.
•My kid will not even begin eating his breakfast until we hit the interstate.(I had the pleasure of figuring that out on my own after stressing.) Well, I look back there to see him staring zombie-like into space (from lack of sleep) and reminded him that he should commence eating his peanut butter sandwiches BEFORE we get to school since it cannot go into the classroom.
•I get his shoes back on, hair brushed, book bag on, and handed over so I can try to WOOSAH for the two hours that he’ll be inside only for a bee with an attitude to infiltrate my car through my cracked window, chase me out, and then take her time leaving through a different window that I had to sneak and open as she explored my vehicle.
•I can’t go home and rest because I have to work after dropping the kid off with his dad.
•Just like the late Whitney, “I Have Nothing” so I’m sitting here thirsty and hungry due to a failure to plan because I’m too exhausted to worry about tomorrow.
•To top it off, the sunshine that normally graces the windshield during my 30 minute drive to school was replaced with gloom and doom cloud cover and a darkness that reminded me that I’ll soon be making this commute in the dark since streetlights are basically non-existent around these parts.
And that concludes my TED Talk😀 Now, I get to go and .
Y’all have a good one! Ya hear?
