06/01/2026
Autism & anxiety
Some days I have a lot of anxiety deep inside.
I stuff it all down and do my best to hide.
But my trigger can be tripped really fast.
I explode like a firecracker which doesn't really last.
Making others angry is never my plan
I only wish others could try to understand.
I try to reel in my anger to avoid hurting another.
I am doing my best as an autistic mother.
I am doing my best I wish they could see.
I am trying so hard to be the best version of me.
Autism level 2 isn't much fun.
Being expected to do things the way "normys" get things done.
I will never be "normal" that is so true.
But the problem isn't really me, the problem is you.
The you that won't explain to me what I've done wrong.
The ones that don't try to understand and chose not to get along.
My communication gaps are a huge struggle in my life.
But I am a mother, a me-maw and a pretty good wife.
To those that only dwell on what they think is so bad.
Your life must be so miserable and so sad.
I live on a schedule that I can handle each day.
It can not be changed in any way.
It causes issues in my brain. To the point I have to recharge to again be sain.
Rather than getting angry at every outburst.
Maybe look a little closer and notice that I hurt.
Each day as I fight back so many tears...
I've been so misunderstood for so many years.
Getting diagnosed didn't fix that pain.
It only explains what's different about my brain.
So show a little kindness each and every day.
You have no idea what others are not willing to say.
We just stuff it inside and hide it away.
In hopes to make it through another day.
Struggling,
😞 Maxx😢
