09/06/2026
At this time I feel that I've lost all affection and emotional attachment toward everything in this world.
In this world, I have nothing to call my own except my parents and my sister. No one here is truly mine. I can't even begin to express why I am struggling so hard or what hope I am counting my days for.
I feel so alone. It feels so horrible that I don't think it's possible to explain it to anyone. I have just surrendered my life to the flow.
Lately, so many bad things have been happening to me. For the last few years, I feel trapped from all sides. I can't even carry the responsibility of relationships anymore; I am getting exhausted. Mentally, I am already unwell, and physical illness is making me even weakerâbecause I have a mountain of health issues.
How people my age are enjoying their lives versus how I am passing mineâthis comparison creates itself in my mind, even when I don't want it to.
People who look at me from the outside judge my life, but I am truly not like that on the inside. My life is filled with so many complications. I never want to share these things with anyone.
I am unlucky in every aspect. I don't even feel like putting in any effort anymore. After being betrayed and getting hurt over and over again, I'm now at a stage in life where I don't feel like trusting anyone new ever again.
Life is becoming harder and harder, and honestly, I am struggling to cope. I canât seem to do anything properly anymore, which leaves me feeling so helpless.