03/16/2024
Little October dump.
I have been a bit MIA lately with posting things. I needed a break from making content the past few weeks (months almost actually…).
I don’t like sharing ‘bad’ things but…
The past few months have been extremely difficult for me. I juggled many balls in the air and continuously seemed to drop some. And the ones I dropped regularly were not enough time to rest, eating well and making time for self-care.
When I am under a lot of pressure and feel stressed (also shoutout to my ability to overthink everything 🧠 ) I have the very exhausting coping mechanism of eating more. It’s something I’ve done my whole life and I think a loooot of people can relate in finding comfort in food. Trust me though, with a balanced routine and consistency this can become very manageable and actually no issue at all anymore.
BUT: add a crazy amount of workload, 3-4 hours of sleep max per night, a brain that can’t stop running on full speed, the fact your constant partner in life is a high-functioning form of depression… and you have the perfect psycho mix of loosing control.
My anchor in all my phases of life is the gym. No matter what, I don’t skip a training and I train super hard and super heavy. 🖤 It grounds me and reminds me of how strong I am. And I need that.
The last few weeks I managed (with some very dark days in between) to implement a more stable routine again for myself. I’ve learned a LOT in this phase and with every one I get more resilient and wiser about it and how to handle it.
So long story short: if you struggle with depression, stress, setbacks, anything like that… you’re not alone. Find your anchor and on dark days hold on to that for dear life (literally). Time has this beautiful ability to make the darkness pass eventually. You are in control of your own happiness, even when you think you can’t do anything. You are the source of everything good 🤍 go forward in mini-steps, but don’t stop moving. I’m in it with you 🤝🏽