Glory in the Gaps

09/02/2025

I forgot to post this, but I published a new blog post after a very long hiatus from writing💛

08/20/2025

“Don’t let your child’s diagnosis become your personality”

It is something that is said often, given as advice.

That advice is unrealistic.

Hearing your child’s diagnosis is life altering, it changes everything you thought you knew before you heard those words.

It changes how you view the world and what you once thought was important.

It changes how you carry yourself through unimaginable obstacles.

And it causes you to live in fight mode because flight mode isn’t an option.

That diagnosis,

It made you feel such an indescribable pain that you don’t allow anything less than to break you.

That diagnosis,

It is a part of you.

You couldn’t stop it from changing your personality if you tried.

And you shouldn’t.

That diagnosis made you unstoppable,

It made you love harder than you knew possible,

And it made you strong.

The type of strong you envied in others,

the type of strong you never could have imagined yourself capable of.

That diagnosis,

It made you everything that you needed to be for your child.

So, let it.

Let that diagnosis become a part of your personality.

Because that personality is the one that keeps you going every single day.

Shared with permission from Payton's Path

08/17/2025

Hey sweet mamas and sisters in Christ! I know I’ve been a little quiet on here the past couple of weeks, and I appreciate your patience with me. It’s also been a little while since I’ve shared a new blog post—but one is on the way soon, so stay tuned! Wishing you a beautiful and blessed Sunday! 💛

08/11/2025

It’s been heavy on my heart lately—this truth that children deserve a stable home and parents who love them, love each other, and love Christ.

Little eyes are always watching. Little ears are always listening. Little hearts are always learning. They mirror what they see and hear. If they grow up surrounded by chaos, anger, and resentment, they risk carrying those patterns into their own lives—often making choices shaped by hurt. But when they are raised in a home where Jesus is the foundation, where grace, peace, and love are lived out daily, they are more likely to walk with Him and shine His light into the world.

Christ calls us to live like Him and to love like Him. Your children are a gift entrusted to you by the Lord, and with that gift comes the sacred calling to raise them as disciples. Your greatest ministry may very well be happening right inside your own home.

“Therefore be imitators of God, as beloved children. And walk in love, as Christ loved us and gave himself up for us, a fragrant offering and sacrifice to God.”
— Ephesians 5:1–2 (ESV)

Children are precious—so very precious. They deserve to be cherished, guided, and deeply loved.
Be their light. Shepherd them in the truth and goodness of the Gospel.

08/08/2025

I have to admit, neither Benji nor I were truly ready when we sent Ezra off to Kindergarten today.

No one warns you about the anxiety and deep fear that come with sending your child with autism to public school for the first time.

The reality that he’ll now be gone five days a week, from 9:00 AM to 4:00 PM, hit us hard this morning. It gutted us.

Comparison can creep in far too easily. At back-to-school night last night, I found myself watching the other children — how they spoke so clearly, followed directions with ease, and seemed to take it all in stride. My heart sank as I silently compared. I questioned myself, my motherhood, and whether we were doing enough for him. Were we letting him down?

To be honest, I’ve been on the verge of tears all day.

The emotions are heavy — and they are real. But so is God’s presence.

Though my mama heart still aches and worries about what lies ahead, I have felt the sweet comfort of the Lord surrounding our home today. His peace hasn’t left us.

Jesus sees him.
Jesus will carry him.
Jesus will protect him.
Jesus will guide him.

These are the unshakable truths I’m clinging to.

Hallelujah and glory to the Lord for His neverending faithfulness and mercy.

08/08/2025

I didn't realize that
a place of complete
chaos is where freedom
would be found.

I didn't realize that
in a whirlwind of change
is where peace would circle me.

I thought I needed calm waters
and peaceful streams to finally
relax into the Hand of the Living God,
but He knows what my heart needs
to fully let go.

And to surrender fully into His plan
I had to find my own plans wrecked.
My old ways and familiar patterns had
to be broken.

Through the crushing I found wholeness.
Through bo***ge I found freedom.
Through despair I found peace.

His ways are not our own.
His plans are not how we would picture.

But He knows how to get us to the
place He needs us to be and He is
patient as we learn to walk beside Him.

He doesn't give up when it takes us
time to fully release all that we
are trying to hold on to.

He understands our humanness
in ways we cannot even comprehend
and it is because of that that I am also
able to have grace for myself realizing
I am just dust and really don't know much at all.

I don't have to try to hold things together,
I can watch as they tumble and fall because
I know my God has a plan for every piece.

He has a plan to restore and rebuild
things the proper way and sometimes
that means watching everything fall apart.

Surrender and freedom didn't come
in the way I had expected but it did
arrive, written into my story the way
God knew I needed.

It came at a cost,
it came with hard choices
and challenges and I only
arrived because of His grace and
hand upon me, and that knowledge is
far more valuable than anything else
I could ever lose.

08/07/2025

I found this mug at Goodwill the other day. And as soon as I read the words, “Be still,” I felt like it was waiting for me. A gentle reminder I didn’t know I needed.

🕊️””Be still, and know that I am God. I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth!” The Lord of hosts is with us; the God of Jacob is our fortress.”
‭‭Psalm‬ ‭46‬:‭10‬-‭11‬ ‭ESV‬‬

In the loudness of motherhood, marriage, and days that don’t go as planned, stillness can feel impossible. But God isn’t asking us to fix everything. He’s asking us to trust Him in everything. To pause. To breathe. To know that even when our world changes…He never does.

That simple $2 mug was a whisper from Heaven reminding me:
✨ I don’t have to carry it all.
✨ I don’t have to have the answers.
✨ I just have to be still… and know.

He is faithful. He is unchanging. He is near.
Even in the aisle of a secondhand store.

08/07/2025

08/02/2025

Feel free to check out my new post💛

Autism wasn’t something I ever expected to walk through — not as a mother, and certainly not in the way I do now.Before Ezra was born, I worked as a Registered Behavior Technician (RBT), providing therapy and support for children on the spectrum. I was drawn to the work in ways I couldn’t full...

08/01/2025

The world’s wisdom will add worry to your life. But God’s wisdom brings peace and life. His wisdom provides stability in a world that is desperately searching for it. The wisdom that the world tries to give often produces only anxiety, not good fruit. When we chase after the knowledge the world offers, we will, unfortunately, still be left searching for something that brings peace. God desires to give His wisdom to any who asks for it (James 1:5); His wisdom gives us security in knowing that He is good. It produces good things within us and is filled with grace. ⁠
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Stop running after the wisdom of this world and run after the wisdom of God.

07/29/2025

Most nights, my 3-year-old is right by my side, up a little later than the rest, building away with his LEGOs while watching Dinotrux or the LEGO Movie. Tonight, he proudly created an “ice cream truck”. As simple as it may seem, I couldn’t help but pause in awe of the creativity God has woven into his little mind. 🍦🚛💛

After what felt like an incredibly long day and as we come into the close of our evening, I’m reminded that God meets us in the small things — in tiny bricks and big imaginations, in the quiet stillness and childlike wonder. These moments aren’t just sweet… they’re sacred and I treasure them. ✨

Thank you Lord for late-night blessings and the joy of seeing the world through my child’s eyes. 💙