12/29/2023
It beginnings with us We ourselves have to realize that no matter what you just look out for yourself and the ones who you cherish, unfortunately I have people I cherish but didn't realize was doing what I was, being going through this dark stage in my life and not having family nor parents or even "frien help, i have been blessed to many times with people i don't deserve, i will admit I'm not a good nor perfect person but the things i have experienced this year alone has shown me how dirty the world can truly get it allowed to, i now understand i am responsible for my actions and priorities, i have let myself slip into a mental break down to where didn't understand who and where i was, have. Consumed myself into this house since Brandon Johnson came into my life..
I must inform everyone that in my reality It's not perfect it's not rainbows and flowers,
The challenge of bipolar 1 , PTSD, skitz , mood swing disorder, and so much more I could cry about having,, 😀
But my paranoia of people and relations with people outside of work and my social media I don't want I am terrified of them, why,???
Because I'm the last 2 years I have had my money stolen from me I got knocked out because of a manic episode, and now showing signs of damage, causing myself to go out of my cearture 2 times because everyone believes I am a woman with no class,
I have never seen such a sad group of so called men, no I'm not impressible but I don't have W***E written on my face,
I want to work towards getting back what I have lost and that's and has been about in just a year alone , I pray everyday that things are and will get better, .
Reality is that things get better then again bad I have had nothing bad x bad for 2 years, I alone can't do it anymore, I want to be the best me I just need another help and motivation help, I got to get out of this depression. I been in please I need a friend f.amily something, just got my job and already sick and have had to call in , I don't like things to go that way I'm very organizing when it comes to work and my obligations, first first , keep my head high I'm need on Lord. Amen 😀😘
