11/08/2025
A long-short weekend with familyā¦
We gathered, worked, cooked, laughed, cried, reassured.
And yes, we were loud. Very loud.
Talking to each other and over each other.
A few yelling across rooms.
Everyone just a little overstimulated, a little overwhelmed, carrying their own concerns about the moment⦠and about life.
Thatās the kind of environment it is when weāre all together.
And tbh, I donāt mind it. š¤
Sometimes we all just need a little bit of reminding.
Behind some smiles that didnāt show up as often this time, my heart carried a weight.
It was easy to hide it over the weekend.
Easy enough that no one seemed to notice.
Thatās where everything felt⦠off.
On the way home, my brain wouldnāt shut off, although I was super tired.
A few tears slipped through.
I thought about how everyoneās stories arenāt always sad, but they are true.
And sometimes truth alone can break your heart.
When we got home, I unpacked slowly,
put things away in their places, showered,
ate quickly, kissed my child goodnight,
and finally crawled into bed.
I laid in my husbandās arms and said,
āIām sorry for my behavior and attitude towards you this weekend.ā
He just whispered,
āItās okay. Allow me be the place where you release the air youāve been holding inside. I know, and I see.ā
And I just broke.
While he massaged my overworked legs so I could fall asleep, I called out to my grandma
not for myself, but for the quiet ones.
The ones hurting.
The ones misunderstood.
The ones lost.
I prayed for her to love them extra, in the way only she can.
Because sometimes all you can do is love people from your deepest place and hope they feel it,
even in their quiet, even in their hurt. I too, owe them an apology.
Loving my loved ones extra extra, in my heart. š¤