20/05/2025
The day before Mother’s Day I was thrilled to find out about my pregnancy. We got to celebrate my first Mother’s Day. On Father’s Day, we celebrated my husband’s first Father’s Day.
The day after Father’s Day, I began to miscarry. I lost my sweet baby the next night. It’s so crazy how many dreams you can have for someone over the course of just a couple months. And then, you have to figure out how to let them go.
I know that it’s well intentioned when people tell you that you will likely get pregnant quickly. But, I also know that the baby that was conceived inside me was important. And I also know that I don’t want to pretend it never happened, because it did.
So, for me, I have seen great joy and great sorrow in a short amount of time. And I have a lot of very dull days in front of me. And I want to hold them in my heart and be thankful for them, because without these dull days, I wouldn’t be able to fully see and experience the very bright days that have been there, too.
The baby was going to be Levi Ryan and he was and is special to us.
Shoe size, 12. Bananas are delightful, but I hate the green ones. My favorite are the ones that are speckled brown and almost ruined, like so many other things that are good. My husband and I call them Potassium Sticks.