SILENT SKY

18/05/2025

23/04/2025

I had the fear of losing you and I was losing my mind.. In the cogwheels of life.. a strange burden of thoughts were setting to be aligned.. the feeling of being safe that use to set me free.. somehow came too close for catching me.. some dreams of forever that were too good to be true.. not just held us together but made me forcefully collide with you.. Definitions of love started redefining my identity.. and being yours I felt to lose all my ability...
My trembling heart and soul losing all courage trying to play safe.. In all my discomfort I was seeking you for quick escape..
No that's not how I own and carry my weakness.. Where I don't stand by myself, I can't own your distress.. More I go deep I felt like losing some respect.. respect for something that was too close to forever.. but me losing myself set the trigger...
I decided to lose my fear.. to set things apart that aren't here.. Fighting my mind was growing worse with my age.. So I gathered to face with all my courage.. As you can't decide things or change something thats meant to be.. So I stepped for the change with all the risk knowing that Change is never easy..

23/02/2025

Thoughts over a cup of tea

If there's a sudden change to a teenage me.. looking through the messenger.. the green dots seems to compete the tenacity to wait before falling asleep.. a spark of happy feeling with a very tiny desire to convey.. but to carry on with the story in mind with out a word to say.. where there lies nothing more than talking to one self and may be a whole lot of careful stacking in help.. not knowing what is wanted out of it.. carrying some background song in repeat..a telepathy life to converse and an extremely obsessed moment where little words, unnoticed touches felt thousands of lifetimes to fail... But the only question that pops up in my mind .. do I still believe in such fairytale??

19/02/2025

When time is too valuable and worthless together.......

When all the faith in the timeless moments gets your back to the wall.. And slowly but gradually the time demands to set free... free the self made belongings from the territory.. with the quote of not meant to be..
As the expectations hit the reality check and demands keep paining... A foggy pathway with droplets acquire the power to set you both vulnerable and fearless... a sudden caous of silence keeps you sorted in the mess... Decisions can never be wrong but can be extreme though... Where you have the choice to be one you never know... And time never stops for the precious moments passing by.. and sometime it's good that you chose not to try..not because there's no way out but you realise the regret of expressions to be loud .... Loosen the boundaries of to be or not to be.. and just choosing the hopelessness to be free... Not choosing to fight again for the time to bother... as valuable time has chosen to play worthless together....

19/02/2025

A sudden bit of windless storm breaking off the shores.. some tinkering distress with traits felt before.. walking along the streets with the topsy turvy in mind.. No answers but I had a lot of questions to find... The sinusoid of emotions swinging right through my veins.. striking through the stomach and smokey lungs to face a fake defence.. The lights were hated and all around heated with some silence.. the calming night sky seemed to have taken some offence.. All through this restless irritation shaking hands, legs and struggling mind.. Strength was scarce to hold on or find...
There was nothing that seemed to be true..And no hope I was heading to ...
But there was something I was holding on..and before I could have let it gone.. some tunes of music.. some windy strikes.. some falling star.. some lonely scar.. all contributed a bit by bit.. till slowly and gradually embraced by a sigh of relief..

06/08/2024

& again sometimes...

18/04/2024

Blurring out every time we move apart is the days and night we spent.. and left with a set of dreams that keeps hoping for a better tomorrow ... A place bereft of the emptiness..
Just in case you pass by that moment you might find me lost but moments are flowing river and soon there will be another..

19/12/2023

The difference is nowhere but in the mind.. where you hope and you tend to find.. counting efforts to stay and keep..till it keeps on scratching deep.. Every do s cancelling out with don'ts.. and more to take than to give.. there's no more place left to talk for relief.. it's better to leave and let live..
Where everyone has been ready to give up always and you learnt that there no point to hold and shout... You can only hurt by wishing to stay... so running away remains the only way out..