SILENT SKY

06/11/2025

Our individual equation

I wish to know you exactly the way you want me to know.. The parts you hide let it be all yours.. and what you show be a part of me.. and inbetween whatever others have of you.. let that be their part of share.. where I may never intrude in.. where I need never care..
For all the life we seek for more.. and dig in to things never ours.. and treat with judgements moving apart bearing all the scars..
For I believe in all of it you have for me.. and meet you as a new individual to see.. Where theres no prior memory.. Nor another building up some story..
And we may know us every day or in rare ocassion.. But it should be only us and our own independet equation..
It might be boaring to set the limits but still like household chores...
I hope you know me only the part.. all of which I belong to yours..

31/10/2025

Butterflies

The eyes were deep and stare wasn't blank anymore.. and some conversations happened even before.. the lips could bear the voice wanted badly to make familier.. with a morning coffee or evening beer..
The finger tips with clean boundaries of nails..where some desires could carelessly circles..
and a tidy watch grabing that wrist in such a way.. that some wishes wants to tick with it all day..
When the topsy turvey in mind cluttering all way.. magically settles with just 'its okay'.
I like myself in all these layer, where I am driven extremely biased without feeling unfair...
With those unnoticed smiles that initated the blushes.. I just cheer for you.. Long live crushes..😉

30/10/2025

Stangely in place

It it strange how each one of us are healing everyday.. no matter how much happiness we have around.. Some where deep beyond the consious mind.. an evil cloak surrounds..
That remember every bit by bit.. and keeps the count of every defeat.. The moments when you held tighter and felt losing the grip.. or may be just another truth breaking a childhood belief.. Or may be the other day the hope that got deprived.. and sometimes without a choice when you were just left with life..
To counter it all we tend to forget.. and gradually healing accepting the love we get.. sometimes the shiver seeking a hug manage to heal with sunlight.. where slowly we learn its all perceptions nothing wrong or right..
Healing is what runs parallel to change.. a contant thoughout time.. like making breaking in a repeat mode till everything is fine..

There is love all around and still we need to seek to find.. with this confused words somwhere at some corner a question brewed in mind.
The one who gives.. happiness, will always chose to give first.. does the process end there till the happiness last..
May be may not be the smile that rained all along treated the scar of another day...
But how to know how it felt the other way..
May not often but ones in a while we should judge our own skill.. to feel the same way how it would actually feel..
May be the bittersweet feeling of chosing yourself is what everyone ones deserve, even when it hurts someone you love...

07/10/2025

Seperation 1

Beyond all the judgements I kept out of my room.. I kept myself bounded by the threads.. where just my people mattered without a fail.. But looking into.my thoughts I go deep into what I am and having been doing to.myself.. Judging every step where no one can help..
For everything I felt I kept struggling for right and wrong.. and the burden of unexpressible emotions I carry along..
I know its all about how deeply things matters.. how often I appreciate.. how precisely I notice.. where nothing felt wrong, never to me atleast..
But the fear to lose has silenced my vulnerability ...and I kept picturing you in my poetry..
But if ever you had looked into my eyes.. you can never unnotice my smile.. Where I seek my peace from your presence and happiness prevails my day with your essence...
And while we are going far apart with end of a phase .. time passing away without a trace.. but even at the height of emotion.. when we felt each other but I still failed to tell.. there remains a part of me that carrys you as one of the purest emotion making part of my life a fairy tale...

07/10/2025

Seperations

I wished it lasted a bit longer.. I never knew how my eyes closed with peace of the rhythm.. lub.n..dubb ... The moment was blank and numbed all the pain.. All I could feel was literally insane.. As I wanted to hold on the moment a bit longer.. as I tried to get closer and stronger.. For the distance I have been struggling through judgements.. I needed a break through and capture my moments...Although, I dint care about myself or my distress... But I don't know want you to change. as even a little spark and depth of my feelings you would definitely trace..
I know your bounds.. but I don't want to involve you in my struggling mind.. My days found peace... Whenever you I could find..
I kept falling for you without wanting you back.. But the last days my mind I couldn't track..
As it went through all secret endeavours.. where I wanted to hold on moments..a bit more close without an offence..I was shattering as I depart but I tried to be strong.. with
a bit more of you to carry along..
I wish I could tell you ... But I couldn't... May be that's how we can still be closer.. without affecting your resilience.

18/09/2025

& we were there inbetween the random conversations..Not trying to know each other more.. and as it would have been, you left.. & something different occured that I could not ignore...
It felt like an heart break & I still wanted to happen again and again.. For I kept seeking a little bit more of you and my mind smilingly cherished the pain..
The droplets that sparkled through the strand of the hair, were meaninglessly noticed with care.. the fingertips rubbing the chin, made my eyes stare with keen..
For it was never more than a random conversation.. without wanting to know you, I made you my intension..
The five seconds smile, the eyes through the glasses, may be got me some reason to share the umbrella causing the adrenaline rushes.. For may be or not I get to see you again.. But my mind will recall the feeling and heart will cherish the pain...
Things were like framed sounding magically insane..
But its a Story from the rain...

14/09/2025

The Silent Warrior

I strive through confusions
My own set of conclusions
Sometimes too much energy
To initiate a change..
While sometimes too laid back
To have something arranged..
I can stand by strong,
Whenever it feels true..
But am too much inside
For the judgements I do...
The fight are too pesonal,
And hard for one self..
When rivalry is the mind..
No one else can help..
It is good in the begining
And gradually gets tough..
Making realizations like
You are not good enough..
May be some genuine talks
Makes things lighter sometime..
Or some tears of relief
Making things align..
For the God within
Keeps the demon by its side..
And utimately there's Nothing to hold on..
Nor anything to hide...
Such a troubled soul I am..
Holding nothingness of all kind..
It is difficult to stand by me
When I dont have peace of my mind..
It might take time as
Nothing works for me on force...
I just wish I could be simple sometimes
to surrender and let me be yours...

05/07/2025

The nights are closer to me since years..as slowly but willingly I can get closer to my fears..I can do the wrong.. without anyone along.. judging my self.. comparing with others.. checking depth of my love and that's what bothers..
For I find a girl with a better routine.. Another one with a much sorted mind.. that can strongly walk along and is much of your kind..
I found some eyes that you may actually admire.. and surrender your heart without a desire.. I look into smiles and stories of some.. and judge myself if worthy to carry along...
I have my own mess and too many self made stress.. that often I lose myself too.. then am I not selfish to look for you..
For I can love enough to love all by myself.. and not bother a bit.. and shut up keeping you away all from my s**t..
I don't doubt, for your eyes says it all for me.. and I can't resist how strongly by my side you want to be.. The patience you hold..the care you do.. keeps me falling repeatedly for you..
But my mind is evil and keeps comparing me with others..checking depth of my love and that's what bothers..
For all the journeys and holding on sometimes me and sometimes times you.. I fear myself but still hoping in the end if we can put through..

22/06/2025

May be there are boundaries that we can never skip.. some words.. closeness and people are better held without insecurities... For how the world that judges the world.. if enters the thoughts.. the judgements are beyond hurts...
I let go off the bounds of normal and spoke the words being free.. May be it should not have been the way and I should be sorry...
I am not dependent on you.. I feel you and feel you to be so me... That taking care and your repair.. somehow sets me free..
But there are still mysteries to unfold.. we have golden ways of keeping things untold.. where assumptions are taken as adventurous ride.. and ignorance to something not understood is saved as pride..
I get mind fu**ed.. may be tried to be too close.. and gradually opening door in my mind I had to shut close.

18/05/2025