23/07/2026
# Just an old thought
One day it will hurt you...
Suddenly out of no where when u come to know I dont exist..
A stream of memories, my smile, my face , me... will fill your mind in a splash..
That might have been forgotten yet kept safely in a trash..
I just imagine the moment and it came up with some thrill, To actually know how you would feel..
Will you regret for not making the time to have some more time with me.. Or will be just sad and let it be...
I know I wont count among the five you count.. And so I donot grieve for not being around..
But there was nothing except something true and in those moments I did find a home in you.. spark, butterflies and all tingling everything that was there from somewhere I had no clue.. But some forces definitely woked driving me to you...
I was made to realize how controlling the mind is important, and it might be hard but necessay to take the responsibility of whatever you meant.
Throughout these days , I am just making a slow but steady space, to have some conversation in mind , may be the other side of the experience I am yet to find..
I know nothing in the world is mine, things can be lost just in no time, and theres no way that I can hold on or keep, when we entered some space with just intensions to leave..
Leave the moment it feels a bit off, or when something bother in return of comfort, or may be a bit of signs showing there might be some responsibility, or a choice to take up much more preety..
So thats how we meant to each other, I might have felt it deep but thats how I always do... may be thats why ready to accept that neither you can stick to me nor I can stick to you..
For I have been scared to mess up this one aswell, depth of which I also barely know and so none we can tell.. for there are lot of things life had to itself, and we learn we are not responsible to explain it to anyone else..
So after all this thats us for me.. a detached happy life... where my existence would not matter definitely..
And suddenly you come to know I dont exist,
You might recall me like just another memory, but will it be discomfort or ease??