15/07/2023
This is the last picture I ever took with my mom.
Sometimes I feel like I don’t belong anywhere, even to myself. I have a need to be loved and protected because I never got that as a child. As we transition from Cancer to Leo season, my abandonment issues are eating me up. My mom’s birthday is today, and I feel more alone than ever before.
1.) I realize that I never got the chance to be loved and supported by her, and never will.
2.) There is no one else that I can rely on in my family to fill up that empty space.
My heart is broken every year on this day, no matter how I try to celebrate who my mom was. Healing is not linear, and grief can be a continuous cycle. Today I will squeeze my kids extra hard knowing that they will never have to feel like this.
