17/09/2021
Growing up in church, I can honestly say I have always felt there was a “more” that I couldn’t get to. I heard all these wonderful things about Yahweh & Jesus and yet…they seemed so far off, not possible for today, and an illusion. I kept thinking to myself, “I know that there’s more to the God of the universe than what I’m seeing and hearing…”
So…I ventured on a journey (and I’m still on it). I tried performance - trying to be Holy, trying to be obedient, trying to live perfect, trying not to mess up, because surely this was the “more”. Surely this is what God desired from me. I had to “prove” I was His and I would get the “more”.
What I got was an anxious, overwhelmed, and discouraged mind & heart.
That’s not the answer.
But I didn’t stop. And I haven’t stopped. I stopped trying to prove and perform. I stopped trying to please everyone. I stopped “trying”….
I just was.
I choose to just be.
I started really reading the Word from a relational standpoint and not from a need to have a “word” to share. I started absorbing His love through His Logos Word and tapping into hearing Him speak His Rhema Word.
I started learning about identity and sonship - learning that once I accepted Christ as my Savior, I was now a SON. I have Holy Spirit inside of me. I am covered in the righteousness, atonement, character, and love of Christ. I am who I am because of Him and everything I do is because of Him.
All of those things I tried to do - they cannot be produced authentically unless they are a by-product of my relationship with Christ and sonship with Abba Father. They aren’t things to perform and do for accolades or applause, they are things that are produced from seeds of His Word and His character.
What I learned was that the “more” of God was answered in one word for me - SONSHIP.
It’s where I learn who I am through who He is. It is where I find my shelter, my answers, my comfort, my completeness, and my identity. I live my life to honor Him and when I mess up - I shake it off and keep tracking. I don’t dwell on the failures, I dwell on the Father. I listen all day - inviting Holy Spirit to come show and speak to me through everyday, practical life.
We don’t need revival for more of God.
We don’t need to do more for more of God.
We don’t need to perform or prove anything for more of God.
What we need is to learn our identity through Him, the Father, and allow Him to begin to work through and in us.
And honestly - I’ve never lived in such a place I live in now. It’s not problem free because life is still life, but lemme tell you…
I have experienced peace, joy, generosity, wisdom, and so much more like never before.
Know who you are today…
-LB