13/07/2024
Dear ex-Church member!
This is your ex-Man of God
And the heart of many other Pastors & Prophets. I am sitting thinking of you ,I hope this finds you well.
You probably didn’t know this, but 9 times out of 10 I cried for you, wept because I heard your struggles, i sympathized and emphasized with you and your battles. Prayed until I was prayed out and sought counsel for my own issues while going through yours with you. While you were at work or at home I was thinking about you and excited to see you get saved and blessed.
I gave you my heart and took time away from my family to make sure yours was together and wouldn’t fall apart while mine did. I struggled financially to help you when you needed it to make sure you had transport to make it to Church or to get food or clothes for yourself. I knew your deepest sins and shortcomings and I did my best to never judge you or condemn and never told your secrets to anyone, I just prayed for you and told you it was going to be ok, God will help you.
Then you turned against me, you listened to gossip and lies from others that wanted to see my downfall. You didn’t protect me like I protected you and your family and I then became depressed, weary and bitter.
You listened to others who held offense and they got in your ear. Or you just didn’t like how things weren’t perfect at church or maybe i made mistakes because I am human but to you and others, I am Not allowed to be human because I hold a title.
I texted you to tell you I love you and am always going to pray for you but no response even though I dropped everything I was doing to answer yours in the past because I loved you as my sheep.
You let others persuade you to bring Division to the flock and you have no moral compass to see the impact of what we Pastors go through and are selfless yet we are accused of being selfish. You bash on social media and slander me around others who slander me to validate their evil hearts while I have to pray to stay humble so I don’t fall into the same trap.
I lose sleep some times because I need your prayers but I got words of curses instead.
We used to be close but then you are gone even while you were in leadership, you left when I needed you the most.
You blame me for your emotions and how i treated you and forgetting how i believed in you and helped you to be where you are today.
Dear “ex-members” I forgive you and I apologize I didn’t if didn't measure up to your expectations.
I apologize if I did offend you unknowingly and i hope you can realize the time and energy I spent in prayers and counselling with you just to be left in the dust. I love you and I pray that you don’t losing yourself much in looking for the right fit for you. i pray you don't stay blind and wounded from all other Christians you were in circles with that did every thing wrong to you but you were never at fault because your holy.
As a member when you left you scattered my ministry and joined another church.
You were my pastor who divided my church when leaving and I hear you have now started your own ministry.
A Pastors job is very hard, it’s lonely, it can be very financially difficult, its sad how many funeral services we conduct, counselling sessions we do, weddings we officiate, and yet the slander that’s thrown at us and lies that’s listened to and believed is unbearable.
May God bless you and keep you. In Jesus Name
Yours Truly,
Your Ex Prophet
