The BPD Baddie

09/01/2026

TLDR: I have been quiet lately… not withdrawn or isolated… just more intentional, I guess. I have shared a lot about my life on social media. I’ve helped a lot of people by doing so, but I’ve felt the need to look inward for the past couple months. For those who are curious, here’s what I’ve been up to…

In addition to working my 9-5 and momming, I’ve been working on getting my massage practice up and running again. Due to financial reasons and some big life changes, it has taken longer than I anticipated. I’m so close though! I’ll be able to start taking clients really soon. I’m excited to start doing what I went to school for and what I love again, even if it’s just on nights and weekends.

I have been going out more lately. While I am an introvert, I was missing connection and my community. It’s been so great seeing my friends, having reasons to get dolled up again, and more reasons to smile. Super thankful for my extroverted friends who drag me out of my cave. 😅

I put myself out there and started dating again. Most of them turned out to be dusties. 😅 Dating in your 30s is rough! 😮‍💨 I almost gave up. I deleted all the dating apps and everything, but when I wasn’t looking, I met someone wonderful. 😍 It’s still very new and we’re still getting to know each other, but for the first time in a long time I actually feel hopeful… like I might be able to love again… to let somebody love me. I almost forgot what it felt like to have butterflies in my stomach. It’s a pretty amazing feeling. 🥰

I’m still very much devoted to my personal growth and my mental health. My therapist told me that she feels that I am stable and we can start having monthly sessions instead of biweekly sessions. I honestly thought that would never happen for me. 🥲

Three years ago, I checked myself in for a grippy sock vacation. My whole life fell apart. Now I’m thriving in my job, I have my own place where I’m raising my kids, I’m starting a business, I help others struggling with their mental health by sharing my experiences and what I’ve learned, and I’m learning to love and be loved again. ❤️‍🩹

It’s not all cupcakes and rainbows. Being a single parent is rough. I’m still struggling to get by, but we always have what we need. I still make birthdays and holidays special for my littles. Working full time and having 3 kids means that my apartment is always a mess, but it’s also full of laughter and fun. 🤩 Our kitty, Lottie, has been a great addition to our family, too. 😻

If you’re still here, thanks for sticking around and reading until the end. Thanks for the overwhelming support and being apart of my healing journey. If it wasn’t for a lot of you, I wouldn’t be here today. I’m beyond grateful. My cup runneth over. 🥲🥹

Love y’all. We can do hard things! 💪🏼❤️‍🩹

12/10/2025

This one is for my fellow BPD Baddies. I have been using this DBT skill a lot lately, so I wanted to share it with you. Let me know if it helps you. Love you all! We can do hard things. ❤️‍🩹

06/09/2025

I'm experiencing BPD splitting and I'm trying really hard to fight it. We can do hard things, right?

04/09/2025

29/08/2025

Thanks for over 2,300 followers and 78K views on my most popular video, baddies! 🥹🥲

I know that I’m very much a micro content creator, but if I were to speak to all 2,300 of you in a room together, I would feel completely overwhelmed. 😅

When I started this channel, I didn’t think it would go anywhere. I was at the lowest point in my life, trying desperately to heal my mind, heart and soul, and just decided to click record one day to share my journey.

So many of you have reached out to tell me how my content has helped you or your loved ones. It warms my heart with every DM and comment I read. It makes putting myself out there and being so vulnerable completely worth it.

I hope to grow this channel more, as long as TT is still around, so that I can reach more people who need this information. I have a lot more ideas for content, thanks to your questions and conversations we have had.

Thank you for being here and for making me feel like my voice matters. Love y’all! We can do hard things! 💪🏼❤️‍🩹

22/08/2025

17/08/2025

08/08/2025

People ask me why I make educational videos about BPD, one of the most stigmatized mental health disorders. There’s a lot of haters out there. Some of my biggest haters include my family and “friends”. If you feel called out for that, I’m not sorry.

The most obvious reason is that I am diagnosed with BPD. I initially wanted people to understand me better, but I gave up on that a long time ago. I’ve accepted that the people who I really want to understand me just don’t want to and don’t care enough.

What keeps me going is messages like this and I get a lot of them. Knowing that I’m helping someone understand themselves, their children, their partners, their friends, and encouraging them to get the help they need brings me so much fulfillment. It makes me feel like I’m doing some good in this world and that feels pretty amazing.

The haters can keep hating. They’re boosting my engagement anyway and that’s never a bad thing. 🤭 I’m going to keep doing my thing and showing the world that we are not monsters.

Love you all. We can do hard things. ❤️‍🩹

P.S. I hid the user’s details for their privacy, but there’s a lot more where this came from. This is just the most recent message I received.

02/08/2025

26/07/2025

This. S**t. Is. Horrible. And I’m only on day 2. I’m a raging bitch, I’m exhausted, and all I can think about is va**ng, no matter how much I try to distract myself.

To put this in perspective for you, I’ve been a smoker since I was 16. I quit during my pregnancies with no problem, but I just picked it up again once I was done breastfeeding my kids. I switched to va**ng a few years ago and I feel like it’s harder this time around.

So… why am I putting myself through this? Because I have POTS. The heat and the ni****ne make my symptoms worse and I have flare ups more often. They are really debilitating, so I’m quitting. I know it’s the right thing to do for my physical health, but I’m struggling with my mental health right now.

I can count on one hand how many people actually give a s**t and check on me on a regular basis, and I’m extremely thankful for you guys. If you can keep doing that during these next couple weeks I would very much appreciate it.

Love you all. We can do hard things. 💪🏼❤️‍🩹

15/07/2025

06/07/2025