23/12/2025
I’ve got a scan tomorrow! Eeek! Nothing says FESTIVE SPIRIT more than a Christmas Eve Scan! 😜
I haven’t shared much about my health recently for numerous reasons but what I will say is, this year has been a real struggle behind the scenes. The long term effects from my surgery have been debilitating and I’m struggling to keep my weight above 8 stones. Ironically people tell me I look well, usually when I haven’t eaten a solid meal for weeks. I think it has really hammered home to me that what someone looks like rarely tells you what they are going through, it’s so easy to judge and project our own pre-conceived ideas onto others and I always think it’s best not to comment on people’s appearance at all really. Weighing less doesn’t mean healthier in many cases. The photos we see on Instagram are literally a second in someone’s life and really don’t know the effort it’s taken for someone to leave the house that day and put on a smile.
Despite everything, I’ve had so many great moments this year and I remain grateful for my surgery, without which I’d have died a long time ago. I was aware of the potential repercussions when I signed up for my surgery, you can’t take that much out of a human body without there being sacrifices to your quality of life.
Something that has helped me this year, focusing on the good. I start the day writing 10 things I’m grateful for. When someone asks how I am I say I’m good thank you, not to be disingenuous but because every time I speak my health issues out loud I literally feel the life drain out of me (I talk to my medical team of course). I repeat affirmations to myself. I listen to my playlist that raises my vibration and I literally count my blessings. It truly helps.
Anyway. Thanks for getting this far. Happy Christmas Eve Eve. If you’re waiting for scan results, may your scanxiety be low and to all of you; may your festive season be filled with love and good memories.
Love ya!
