25/05/2025
Happy birthday Daddy.
Today would have been your birthday. I’ve imagined this day so many times, how we would feel not being able to call you to wish you a happy birthday, what we would do, what we would say. I find comfort in how we celebrated you last year. We went the extra mile to make you happy, it was like we knew…
Life doesn’t feel the same anymore, sometimes I still ask myself questions, why are we all here? why is life worth living? why is everything designed this way?
The pain never goes away, but we’re learning to live with it now, some days are good, some days are really bad, some days I just feel numb and don’t understand what in the world this means… Like, can someone please cut the cameras now? I don’t want to hear that you’re in a better place, I want you here.
You were such a fly Dad. You have never been forgotten, and you never will. I wasn’t ready to live life without you in it, without your guidance, I’ve been forced into a different level of adulthood, there are so many questions I want to ask you, so many things I want to tell you, so many things I want to show you, but I can’t, I wish I had one more day with you. There were many plans we had for when you got better, but life had other plans.
I’ve learnt so much about so many things and so many people in this little time, and these lessons will live with me forever. In you absence, we must learn to live, not just for ourselves, but for you. Impressing you was always the greatest catalyst in my life, and it still is. For every breath you no longer take, we find strength to take our own, and to fight for a life we know you would have been proud of.
I hope Heaven is celebrating you today. I hope you’re surrounded by peace, light, and everything beautiful. I carry you with me, always. Happy birthday, my angel. I love you beyond words. Till we meet again Daddy…
