
16/10/2022
“pro tip: don’t forget to look up at the rocks at least two times during the show”
It was 2014 and I was on my way to red rocks for the first time..
Every concert since, I hear her voice in my ear & I pause to take it in.. the night sky.. the towering rocks.. I have a moment that feels like I’m floating in between space and time
I remember,
My first year in Colorado… finding myself and losing myself & so.. unaware of what was coming.
“You’ve had a great season” the older woman at the concession stand winked at me…
& That’s when I learned that they’re watching, that they’re with you.. even when it feels like you’re alone.
The night my best friend did L*D for the first time & we floated through the crowd saying “you’re a goddess!” .. no, you’re a goddess! We’re ALLL goddesses!!” 😮🥹
The second date at red rocks, so out of breath climbing the stairs & he made me CAWWW like a Raven over the crowd at the top!
When my ex & I weaseled our way into the after party & hung out with our favorite musicians families
Looking at my reflection in the mirror, pupils quite dilated, speaking out loud “you are so beautiful” & really really feeeling it
Hugging my sisters & my parents.. running into close friends, spotting my neighbors!
The synchronicities and the magic and the heartache and the coming to god moments within those rock walls
Moments I’m proud of, some I’ll keep with me forever, & others I wish I could go back to give myself much needed love.
Sometimes life changes so fast it can frighten you.
“But I remember, it’s the same heart… & that usually makes me feel better” I told Christian last night as we drove up to the venue
It was a magical night.. sober, grateful, alert, in love
What a gift to have those people who hold us through our seasons.
& yet,
Sometimes, it’s a place
&
Sometimes, it’s the rocks
Living Brave feels like these rocks for me.. there’s no ceiling.. the city skyline glistens in the distance.. and the moon.. THE MOON! You can never do it justice..
This community holds me in my seasons & will continue to witness my evolution. People come and go… the vibe shifts, the art lives. For that I feel eternally grateful.
Boogie on
🧡
Shoshanna