Gloria's crib (2025)

02/07/2023

*** Another Me***© Godwin Jennifer
Chapter 2j
I reluctantly sat down. A curious part of me wanted to check this guy out. He leaned forward, smiling, " do you want anything?" " Straight to the point, I know there is something and I have no time to hear balderdash". He placed his hand on his chest and chuckled" ,come on, Chisom , I know you have nothing doing now, you just finished pole dancing rehearsal like an hour ago, nothing else till six". I stared at him nonplussed. What? My eyes were really itching me this time as they bore into his, "you live off campus. You are the first of six kids. Well to do parents.Always partying and pole dancing with Bisi and kemi. You..."
I lifted a finger to halt him " Go to hell". He just read my profile in a minute. No one knew most of those things on campus. I stood up to stomp outside only to face his annoying smiling face," stay away from me if you don't want me to destroy your life". I never knew when I got outside.
Cigarette. Where was it? My head was just about to explode. To think I had it all in control. I was so mad . Was this how he got his results? Using his cute grin to confuse ladies? Mtchew! Rihanna was so right. This guy wasn't playing at all. He was a strategist.

02/07/2023

***Another Me***© Godwin Jennifer
Chapter 2i
Well, I kept seeing him around. I couldn't explain what he was doing. Watching or stalking me. This went on for two months and one day, I decided that Mountain would make it to Mohammed. I got my chance at a cosy restaurant. I walked boldly towards his table and had my seat. All eyes were on me or him? I knew I was almost naked so it might turn heads though.
" Hey, Bible". He looked dashing, I would give him that. But he looked amused too. That wasn't the expression I expected. He sat up, dropping his drink, " so she finally came ".
My brain tried so hard to process what he had said but I was more distracted by the voice. What did he just say? Was he doing those on purpose?, Was this a trap? I quickly turned around and said the st*****rs' oath. He chuckled,"what?". I couldn't bear to look at him, it was like I just got into a snare. Diffidence slowly crept into me. I shook imaginary ants from my body. He narrowed his gaze at me and I felt so small. The smile on his face was annoying and I felt stupid for coming to his table. As I turned to leave, he held my hand, " don't, have a meal with me".
My jaw dropped. What did he just say? In this public place? I was literally a pr******te and everyone knew it. Did he do this to others? Was he using the strategy Rihanna spoke about ? With that, I cleared my voice, " that's so lame, Bible, are you asking me out?". I could unnerve him too. I hoped so. He was the first guy that hasnt tried to take in my appearance. I meant I was naked. my butt cheeks were out.They usually don't stand me for a second. He may be gay or something.
" You are already out. Just for lunch, Chichi"
Wow! He knew my name too. " Bible, how did you get my name?", I didn't understand the guy.He was expressionless and unreadable. He winked at me, " I have my way." Was it not unchristian to wink? He continued, " you go by Sharon stone, do you prefer that?". I rolled my eyes. So much for a lunch. Preach on.

02/07/2023

*** Another Me*** © Godwin Jennifer
Chapter 2h
Rihanna crossed her legs and stared into the space ," After we lost half of our recruits to a crusade they held, I decided it was time for me to take the bull by the horn and that was getting rid of the ring leader. We came up with a strategy that was meant to work. I joined the fellowship for six months. That long. The thing no suppose knock at all. I didn't jump any step and was so patient. I got him to notice me by coming very early to the fellowship. We only got to the brother and sister stage. nothing more. I kept on till I started fooling myself. I thought I was following the script..."
She shook her head , 'no, I started hating to go for our meetings. I blocked Julie and Rasky. I wanted nothing to do with them"
My mouth was agape. For real? Rihanna?. I hardly could believe it. So this thing took her three years yet there was no result. One year of pretence and two years of confusion. She had been believing that she could change if only Jason accepted her. "Finally, when I opened up to him, he replied, ' sister Bisi, let's pray about it together... We have to give all to him including our relationship." I could imagine how frustrated she must have been. Love was truly foolish.so foolish. I didn't doubt it because he had an air of confidence about him or was it arrogance?
" He wasn't in anyway acting like he would give us a chance. That was when it dawned on me. I was the loser. He had taken my hands together and said that God will only use a beauty like me if I continue , blah blah, blah.
Almost all my recruits had joined the fellowship and I had to think of what I was doing ."
I sighed dreamingly, " the guy na psycho" and they both nodded. Rihanna discarded the cigarette, " it is a lesson, dear. A big one, na Julie and Rasky remind me say I still be stripper. I tell all the fresh blood, play with the boys but not their men. Jason na strategist."
Wow! I better give up,I nearly bet on getting him down.

02/07/2023

***Another Me*** © Godwin Jennifer
Chapter 2 g
Two years ago
There he was standing. I saw him stare at me with keen interest. I lit a cigarette . He was still there staring. I smirked. It was going to be interesting. I didn't want to think about what he was seeing . I guessed a lost soul. Well, well... Are you not a cute little thing, I chuckled inwardly. If it was another guy, I would have understood the signs. But this was Jesus man...the handsome breathtaking Jesus man that had been stealing our converts. Business had been slow for us because of him and whatever went with him. Everyone in the Judy girl talked about him. Even the black Raven too.
I took a drag and turned again to see him still there. I scoffed. Hope I wasn't getting a preachy talk? I might lose my cool just by hearing" sister". Them mama!
Hagar was right beside me and I guessed she noticed what was up. " Wow! Stone! Hope this one no be your project?". In a mocking tone, I replied," he is cute". She laughed hysterically. " Chai! If not for that Bible, I for wan try. you no say we fit whine them girls but them guys stubborn gan". I looked up to find him gone. Really? For real?
" Forget that thing, babe" I said with much confidence, "for this hundred level we go turn this rubbish, you know how many of them I don bang now! Stay there na. " Hagar made a face then smirked, " don't say I didn't warn you, you be fresher, ask Rihanna, at least this is my second year here, I know how these guys work. Them dey mark us and them go decide who them go take down. Rihanna be wan change before, na this guy cause am. make you no just underestimate am".
" Speaking of the devil" , I remarked on seeing Rihanna. Rihanna had been our leader . She was in her final year.
Hagar told her about Jason and our discussion. She hissed before sighing, " sharonstone, no be this type and the farther you are away from him the better for you. This one has nothing to do with confidence o." She gulped do hagar' s beer.

02/07/2023

***Another Me*** © Godwin Jennifer
Chapter 2f
Something broke inside me and a reality dawned on me. The fact that I was going to be alone ... Or lonely very soon. That scared everything out of me. I had lived in the fear of that and that alone had been the origin of all my wrong decisions. I never wanted to be alone. If Jason left me, I would be left with Papa alone. Was this what being born again meant? Being alone? I had lost virtually every one. I doubted how long I could keep up with these.
Thank God we were at a secluded spot. Oh God! For a moment, I had thought I would deny all I told Jason just to please him. I didn't. I didn't and I wondered why. I wondered why because I loved him so much to let him go. I couldn't even find the boldness to look him in the eye and confess my transformation.
I walked slowly with a heavy heart. Was this going to be my cross? Was this the cross Papa had mentioned? Please, Lord, help me. If not for that nightmare, I would have played along with Jason. I knew better now . I didn't want that leech in me to rise again. Papa had told me not to hide my faith from anyone no matter the mockery not even from my boyfriend. He told me that my old man was seeking for a way to resurface and I had to win this battle by being intentional.
What would I do now that my heart was breaking? Was I going to lose everything and everyone? Jason was the only one I had now aside from Papa. Was Christianity this hard? I had thought all would be fine from now. Jason!

02/07/2023

*** Another Me***© Godwin Jennifer
Chapter 2e
After some minutes of checking me out, he heaved a sigh "who is he ?” What?, Why was he thinking that now?, I understood him though.“ I know I have been living that sinful…”, Immediately, he held and squeezed my hand tightly, " who is he?” I groaned in pain, “ there is No one , Jason, you will injure me, I said…” “ tell me which of the nuts loosed from that godforsaken brain, " “ trust me, I have chang…’ and he slapped me. He was shocked at what he did. He paced up and down in confusion. Then he stood in my face, “ you must be mad. What are you vomiting right now? Look at me, chizzy” he drew me closer, ignoring the tears on my face, " and read my lips, we will go to hell together. You and I”
All the while,my heart was breaking, shattering and thudding as i remembered all the torments I had put him through. With a tone of finality ,he said,” Hey, Sharonstone, go back and screw your nuts, this is the highest level of hypocrisy you can play. God can never accept you. You are worse than I am so don’t use this prank anymore” With that, he walked away angrily to his car and drove off, leaving me covered in dust.

02/07/2023

***Another Me*** ©Godwin Jennifer
Chapter 2d
“ Sharon…” “it is Chichi “ I replied quickly. He was taken aback ,"you said what?” “ never mind”, my eyes were fixed on the ground. He drew closer,”babe, don’t tell me you are going to go stiff on me again, I have explained to you, babe. I had to fly out. I had somethings to take care of. I never knew all those things happened . Besides your line wasn’t connecting” . He was whining like a child and pulling me in for a kiss or whatever. I stopped him, “ I know, I am not being stiff nor cold, I under…” “is there anyone else?”. That was unexpected. He was staring at me intensely. “No”, I replied quickly almost out of breath. “ then why are you…”his eyes fell on the flyers in my hands, “ what are you doing with those?”
Oh God! Not Jason too, I would just die without him. I loved him if he …,” chizzy, is this the new game?”. He was smiling widely. I just stared at my feet , confused about what to say. It was funny how the table had turned. He had preached to me those times in the past. I had refused to give in till he fell. He fell because of depression, I knew. Now he felt I was playing with the Christians.
“ Chizzy, come on, leave these Christians now, you never do them tire, you hav…” “jay, It is not like that, I am with them now". Good Lord, I had finally found my voice. He was trying to process what I had said, “ say what?” Courage crept into me, “I said it’s not like that, I am with them now”. As soon as the words left my lips, horror filled Jason’s face. “ Chizzy, what did you say?” . I moved back a little, “Jay , I am with…” “ will you shut that foul mouthed stinking rubbish hole you call mouth!” Oh, there it went, ,” are you mad?” he scoffed. The more the realization sank into him, he shook his head and became red, “ tell me you are joking” he was bawling at me. Tears began to cascade from my eyes. I turned him to that. I made him that. Jason would never curse .He was an ex youth fellowship president.

02/07/2023

***Another Me*** © Godwin Jennifer
Chapter 2c
I never told them Hagar had hired them to kill me. The only reason I wasn’t arrested was because they had visited Papa and learnt that I was brought in four hours before the shootings had begun. So they agreed I wasn’t involved. Now that was really strange. Papa had told me that I was shot on the arm and some pieces of glass were removed from my scalp. I didn’t know my assailants for sure,maybe Eeight and Fnine, I couldn’t say for sure. I had to seal my mouth to the police but discussed my confusions to Papa.
Walking slowly, I successfully shared one of the tracts after two hours. I guessed the lady didn’t know me because the others practically fled from me. Saying I felt bad was an understatement, I felt terrible. Now I understood how they felt when they shared those tracts and we made mockery of them. I felt worse as I recalled how I had used the tracts to wrap weeds in their faces and forcing them to take a smoke. I was crazy.
“hey ! sharonstone!” . I looked up to see Jason in his car parked at a corner. I made to hide the tracts but I felt bad. I felt really bad like God wasn’t happy with me. I encouraged myself to hold them . I thought I was done hiding. He got down and ran towards me. That was when I realized that I wasn’t as bold as I had thought. I began to panic as he got closer for so many reasons. One, because of what we did three days ago .Two, Jason had been a born again christian before. I guessed I had caused him to backslide.

02/07/2023

***Another Me***© Godwin Jennifer
Chapter 2b
When the whole 'show' was over, everyone hurried off to wherever leaving me unattended to. I thought there was always a welcome class or something. I heaved a sigh and mumbled a little prayer hoping that God hadn’t left me because you know, he must be siding people that were for him before me. Maybe. Papa was the only assurance I had that God was real and interested in me. Maybe I really could do this. I could prove to everyone that I had changed. It wasn’t easy for anyone to believe Paul in the bible, so Papa had said.
I picked a handful of the tracts that had fallen to the ground in their haste to leave. Who on earth would I share them to ? everyone was going to either run away in fear or call me pretentious. I was the last of the old Judy cult girls that survived. So I knew that when they see me they see the devil. I had terrorized them. I and Hagar were the most powerful girls on campus. Oh, Hagar! Oluwakemi Adeosun. She was gone now. Funny how we started off as sisters and ended as worst enemies. I inwardly thanked God for another chance. Really! BecauseThe worst of them all, I was. I had learnt that all the members of the black raven and the judy girls were shot dead. The forty-three of them. Except me . I was declared dead till a week ago, I resurfaced from the hospital with Papa's delegates. I didn’t hear about the new recruits. I couldn't imagine the gory sight of corpses here and there. The police had expected me to know something but after the thorough investigations and my statement, they agreed that they had come to a dead end. There was no single clue. All they had come up with was that a fight had ensued between the two gangs and they killed one another.

02/07/2023

*** Another Me*** © Godwin Jennifer
CHAPTER 2a
Some Christians were critics. They weren’t pragmatic when it came to the so called love that they professed. I didn’t blame them anyway, they must be thinking about how a devil had come to their fellowship today. Live. Had Papa not advised me to join the campus fellowship, I would have stayed indoors. He always emphasized on the need to do so and checked on me to find out if I did so. And there , they were all treating me like a leech immediately I joined them. I heard a lot of whisperings , meanwhile, some were bold enough to leave the seats close to me . it was humiliating though, I guessed I had to keep up with it.
All the while, I remained quiet. Nothing was obviously going through my mind. What had I expected? They were all humans . Even their president was preaching with a divided attention. I noticed he started prattling when he had seen me. Yeah, it was expected. I had destroyed their assembly with acts and scenes, if you know what I meant. I had organized a st*****rs’ carnival where they were having a fellowship. We humiliated them, especially the ‘brothers’. It was so crazy. When this president dared to stop us, I ordered some cult guys to beat him up after forcing a great deal of alcohol down his throat. Not once nor twice. What was I even doing here? Who will understand that I regret them all? This mission Papa gave me was so tough. I couldn’t believe that I was here. I was even regretting coming because everything was centered on me , the Enemy. Or did they mean the devil? But why does it seem like they were all glancing at me as the sermon went on?

02/07/2023

*** Another Me*** © Godwin Jennifer
Chapter 1h
A month ago
“ She is okay, I think she 's just responding to treatment”, I heard a voice say. It sounded elderly. I couldn’t open my eyes,. Half of my body felt numb, it was paralyzed because I couldn’t move the left side.
“the injury was deep, the cut might have affected her nervous system, it is a good thing you brought her here. God being so kind, she will survive”.
After some minutes, my eyes opened and I saw him. That was how I met papa. Papa was the doctor that treated me. I learnt from him that the stranger who brought me to the hospital was leaving for his hometown. So he came to make sure that I was in a good condition. I wasn’t even grateful. I should have just died. If not, I would become the devil himself. I would kill this time. Hagar dared to kill me.
“Young lady, you have to thank GOD, he has been so good to you. This is nothing but a miracle… thank God”, The old man remarked. He was very handsome, gray-haired and goodnatured. To crown it all, he was a chatterbox. No one would know he had to face any sort of obstacles in life because he cheated even his age. That was where my conversion began. Just a month with Papa, I broke down into sobs. I changed without much resistance. From a jezebel to a human being at least. A month in that hospital had given me thoughts of my future. Papa had awoken me from a very deep slumber.

02/07/2023

*** Another Me*** © Godwin Jennifer
Chapter 1 g
PRESENT
“ Babe, let’s leave this hall, kasala go soon burst’, I overheard the girls squealed as they hurried off. They were evidently afraid of me , more because I seemed harmless right now. Coming to school without my usual companions, I even felt awkward. It had been rumoured that I was dead a month ago. As soon as I had appeared in school two days ago, everyone had been staring at me like I had risen from the dead. I squinted my eyes taking a better shot at my environment. The girls had scurried away and the males were all around waiting for a drama . I had always given them one before. Changing was so hard. I still missed the fame. Papa had told me not to give up my salvation based on people’s criticisms or appraisals. They should be dead to me. I couldn’t help but reminisce on how I recovered from the near death experience.
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My eardrums were filled with music. It was a cool one. I thought I had died. And if I had, I should be burning right now! I began to squirm . Was I alive ? I SHOULD BE IN HELL RIGHT NOW. That was where I belonged.

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