25/02/2024
The last 3 years I've struggled with being healthy, conscious, happy and content. Every Sunday waking up hungover and ashamed from a 1-3 day bender. I wouldn't feel remotely close to normal until Wednesday or Thursday, sometimes even Friday and then I'd do it all over again. I couldn't tell you why, or how I got to that point. A never ending cycle that has directly affected my marriage, my health, my business, my LIFE, and now my ability to be the best father I can be.
It was easy for me to say I didn't have a drinking problem because "during the week I take care of business". Even though internally I was a shell, struggling to connect with people, in a cloud from the weekend before, not thinking clearly and always filled with anxiety and stress.
I'm finally starting to feel back on track, finally starting to feel like myself again. It has been a bumpy road internally, slowly trying to deal with whatever it is that gives me that craving to crack a beer, and keep going until I have 24 cans stacked. It's not that I can't have a beer and call it a night, it's that frank the tank mentality on a Friday or Saturday that would push it too far.
Something in me is changing for the better, maybe I've just grown sick of being half the man I'm supposed to be. I've slowed down A LOT and getting back into fitness. This is the first weekend in years I didn't have a drop, and damn it better than any buzz.
If anyone is struggling, my dm's are open and maybe we can work through this s**t together, and ride hogs in between. 🤘
