
03/09/2025
Iโve been through things that would make so many women jaded.
My SA perpetrator wasnโt just a family member โ he was my childhood hero. Someone I looked up to forever. Someone I truly thought was one of my closest people.
After it happened, I didnโt just have to go get
the r * p e kitโฆ
I had to โ rethink my whole sense of our relationship.
I had to rethink my place in my family.
In the world.
My divorce wasnโt just a break up โ it was a cataclysmic break with my whole identity.
I suddenly had to give up the identity of the good girl, and I realized just how much I had staked on it.
My miscarriage was a heartbreak so much bigger than both of those.
I couldnโt believe how it felt.
๐๐ญ ๐ญ๐จ๐จ๐ค ๐ซ๐๐๐ฅ ๐๐๐๐จ๐ซ๐ญ ๐ญ๐จ ๐ฌ๐ญ๐๐ฒ ๐ฌ๐จ๐๐ญ.
It took so much work to ๐ฌ๐ญ๐ข๐ฅ๐ฅ love men,
to open to physical ๐ข๐ง๐ญ๐ข๐ฆ๐๐๐ฒ,
to ๐๐๐ฅ๐ข๐๐ฏ๐ in love,
to know I was ๐ฐ๐จ๐ซ๐ญ๐ก๐ฒ of it,
and to decide that none of those things had to mean I wasnโt cut out for the life I was craving.
๐๐จ๐ณ๐ฒ, ๐ฌ๐จ๐๐ญ, ๐ฌ๐๐๐, ๐ฅ๐จ๐ฏ๐๐.
I donโt know if I could ever fully share just howโฆ much it took.
How much it cost,
including literally,
hiring coaches and doing healing and going on retreats and endless therapy and all the time crying in cafรฉs pouring over my journal.
The journal budget, my god. ๐
But what I do know is thatโ๐ข๐ญ ๐ฐ๐๐ฌ ๐ฐ๐จ๐ซ๐ญ๐ก ๐ข๐ญ.
I think it is utterly delightful that there are coaches out here teaching โจmanifestingโจ whoโve had nothing but a beautiful and easy path through life โ Iโm so glad. I want that for more people.
But donโt accidentally mistake us.
This daily lifeโฆ where Iโmโฆ crying with gratitude.
Literally I canโt believe I get to be this humanโs mother.
This manโs wife.
This businessโ CEO
and this visionโs steward.
I feel so blessed. I know it looks like itโs perfect and the truth is? It honestly is. Like, of course I have hard moments, crying or overwhelmed or panicked at a new parenting moment or frustrated at kajabi
but it is justโฆ
Nothing.
Compared to how lucky I feel and how hard the past was.
I brought this energy of grace and gratitude into my ๐ฅ๐ข๐๐.
Itโs a HUGE reason why we are thriving.
๐๐ฒ ๐๐ก๐จ๐ข๐๐ ๐ญ๐จ ๐จ๐ฉ๐๐ง
๐๐ ๐๐ข๐ง ๐๐ง๐ ๐๐ ๐๐ข๐ง.
Itโs available to you.
โค๏ธโค๏ธโค๏ธโค๏ธโค๏ธโค๏ธโค๏ธโค๏ธโค๏ธโค๏ธโค๏ธโค๏ธ