16/12/2022
It's been a year of minimal streams, and I miss you guys!
So tell me! I'll go first..
♡ I had a baby.
♡ I survived a blood clot, which was/is one of my biggest fears.
♡ I overcame so many obstacles with my health and mental wellness. I kept my promise to myself that I would get my health back in order after I had my last baby. While it's an ongoing process and it's very difficult to keep up with it all, and honestly, it's a little scary at times.. I HAVE KEPT THE PROMISE TO ME.
♡ I enrolled in college and will start in just a few more weeks!!
♡ Arnaldo and I remodeled the house after hurricane damage and did NOT kill each other or even argue one time while our house was torn apart for weeks. 🤣
♡ This is the big one for me: I started focusing on my mental health and healing. I started apologizing where I really meant it and not for just existing. I started thanking those who were truly there for me. I started accepting and even asking for help from loved ones. I said, "I love you," more and meant it. I confronted people that I care about who hurt me instead of silently letting it bother me. I generally come off as a very outspoken person, and I am most of the time, but I struggle to let people know how I truly feel, what I go through, and how things effect me beyond superficial topics. I used to silently go through really hard things, feeling alone, and not wanting to inconvenience anyone or experience confrontation of any kind. Throughout this year, I've started to change that.. I spoke up to loved ones for a multitude of reasons, some I was worried that I hurt, and some who hurt me. Only one refused to acknowledge or consider any wrongdoing aside from the things I had done wrong. I explained my feelings, apologized where I needed to, and now feel free and beyond proud of myself, knowing that I put it all out there regardless of being totally out of my comfort zone and the possibility of stress or backlash. And if just one person wasn't considerate or receptive, then I think that's worth keeping the people who do listen and who genuinely care for me, close to me without any unspoken, negative feelings lurking.