03/05/2023
The beginning of March, I was diagnosed with breast cancer. Let me say, first and foremost, I am going to be fine. I’m one of the lucky ones. I have incredible doctors, fabulous insurance, a company that supports my health, and family and friends who are going to the ends of the earth to take care of me.
Since my surgery last week, friends and family have taken care of me 24/7. I’m not sure what heaven is like but I caught a glimpse through the love and support everyone has shown me.
The wild and crazy thing is that I decided, four weeks prior to my diagnosis, to sunset the podcast. I just felt this intuition, this knowing, that the time has come to end the show. When I started Failing Forward, I felt an energy and an excitement. Recently, that energy started to fade. And then I felt a gentle nudge to end it.
I said to my executive coach, “When I say this out loud, I know I’m going to have to hold myself accountable. I think I need to end the podcast.” I was scared to end it… It had become a part of me that I was proud of. It made me feel more worthy. But then I remembered a lesson I’ve learned before: Nothing can make me worthy, because I am worthy all on my own.
The podcast has given me many, many other lessons, thanks to all the amazing guests. I am so honored and humbled that they took the time to talk to me. I’m also incredibly grateful to all of you, my listeners. I never really knew if people listened or not until someone said, did you know your podcast is one of the top 2% of listened podcasts? What?!?! No way!
All this to say, magic has surrounded this tiny podcast called Failing Forward. And while I don’t know what will be next, you bet that I’m going to be listening to the nudges, the inner voice, the energy, intuition, God, Higher Power, the Source, the Universe. I know it won’t be easy but as Morgan Freeman said in the movie The Good Person, “Amor Fati,” meaning love thy fate. Whatever’s next is my fate! And no one else’s, and I’m going to love it with all my heart. 💕
