16/04/2025
WAY over due for an update on this page, is anyone even still around? 😅
For those who may not have heard, I tragically lost my mother to cancer in November of 2023.
From diagnoses to her passing was 9 months, so fast and the suffering I witnessed her face in those 9 months was traumatic.
The journey dealing with grief has been a long hard one and I'm forever changed because of it.
Some days are better than others, I hear a song that triggers me or I see someone wearing red (Her favourite colour) and the tears are uncontrollable.
When I felt like I was finally coming out of the dark, finally feeling a bit more peace and able to talk about her without falling to pieces and sobbing, we got some pretty hard news.
My father was diagnosed with stage 4 prostate cancer.
I can't fully explain what I felt when the doctor looked at him and said, "I'm so sorry Joe but you do have cancer and it's aggressive".
My heart shattered, I cried, I begged God not to do this to us again, please don't take our father from us!
For weeks I felt depressed, I couldn't believe the world could be so cruel to us and my heart was broken thinking of my dad suffering through chemo and radiation treatment's.
How on earth were we going to deal with this again?
Slowly I started to feel hope, hard considering we had so much hope for my mother to survive and we still lost her, so I was astonished I was even still capable of hope.
But I was, I guess it's just part of what makes me, me.
Once we started to learn more about prostate cancer, how it's one of the most treatable cancers, even at stage four and the treatment's aren't as aggressive as most, I felt so much better.
We didn't have much time to even really think about much, we were thrust back into constant hospital visits and radiation schedules, which my poor dad coped with so well.
He has finally finished his 20 days of radiation, he is doing well, having some symptoms but I'm so proud of how he has handled all this.
Life has been a wild ride for me, sometimes I feel like I've lived 3 lives and I'm scared what may come next, but I also know that's no way to live.
I was derailed from my life for awhile, needed to make my family the priority and I will always do that, but now I think I'm ready to start getting back into the swing of the podcast.
I know better than to set a date lol but I really hope to start getting more episodes recorded and look forward to connecting with more inspirational people.
If you stuck around on this page, thank you, It means so much to me.
Till we meet again.
Liz
