12/08/2015
Interesting read from our friends over at The Fitzgerald Museum in Montgomery, Alabama.
In August of 1931--just a month before she was discharged from Prangins Clinic in Switzerland and the Fitzgeralds came home to Montgomery--Zelda wrote Scott the letter printed below. They had just returned from trip to see the sick son of Sarah and Gerald Murphy, Patrick, who was being treated for tuberculosis the Austrian Tyrol, deep in the heart of the Alps.
Pragins sits on the western shore of Lake Leman. Approximately 30 miles as the crow flies, directly across the lake, is the town of Caux, where Fitzgerald was renting an upstairs apartment. This fact must have heightened Zelda's feelings of proximity and distance, as she describes so beautifully in the letter.
"Dearest, My Love --
Outdoors is glowing pale in a Narcissan moon--cradling and cuddling itself and smoothing out the surface of the lake and a luminosity spreads everywhere that must culminate in your balcony. Dear balcony, where you walk absent-mindedly and drop a cigarette and stand poised in the morning sun, just an answering flash. Caux is so far away, but I love thinking of you there above the heat and smells and white-pavement-grooming that borders the lake like a paper wrapping, pink and crisp. O dear Doo-do-- You held me close beside the railing as if you needed me, and I love you so.
We are going to Berne to-morrow, so I won't be able to work. I'm only happy when I'm doing what I think you're doing at the time, and I like us to both be alone in our rooms, changing chairs and looking through walls and staring in and out of the window.
You hold your ci******es way down, wedged between your fingers, and you sometimes seem to be buttoning up yourself, slipping into you as if you were a freshly pressed suit, and your empty shoes lie expantantly on the floor as if they were waiting for Santa Claus, and all your things have touched you and reek of an irrealizable Sweetness--
Goofo, are you mine?
Please be--
I love you
Good-night"
- taken from "Dear Scott, Dearest Zelda," eds. Jackson R. Bryer and Cathy W. Barks, 2002.