04/10/2025
Not the update I wanted to make.
I’d not spent time in the hospital before this. Never broken a bone or had a surgery, a point of pride I boasted to Nathan in idle chat recently. Fate is more easily tempted than I gave her credit for.
I don’t know I believe in such things, but if I did, l should have known things were going suspiciously well. I’d climbed my first V8+, a grade that doesn’t mean much in the grand scheme of it all, but meant so much to me as a milestone. I felt strong and confident. But the balance of things was quietly preparing an invoice.
There’s not much else to say other than I fell whilst bouldering outside. I hit the ground and looked at my leg and I knew l wouldn’t climb again for a long time. I’ll spare the squeamish the finer details, but limbs were at angles they shouldn’t be & what should have been inside my leg wasn’t.
I didn’t know that first night in hospital how scary, lonely and painful the next three weeks would be. How much I’d miss fresh air and going to the toilet by myself. How easy it would be for darker thoughts to breach my efforts at courage. I’ve had 3 surgeries to repair crush injuries to my tibia, fibula and ankle. A rod pushed from my knee to foot. Bolts, plates, staples and bone grafts to repair my leg. The impact also tore my meniscus and my ACL.
For as sad as I feel to have had such a traumatic injury, I am grateful that my accident wasn’t worse. I didn’t land on my head or back & I’ve had incredible support. Special shout out to my surgeons for putting me back together, to Nathan & Anita for dancing with me at each milestone, wheeling me around the hospital and for holding my hand when I needed it.
It’s been really rough: lots of tears and trying to accept it’ll be a long journey back, but it’s given me perspective & lit the fire in my belly to appreciate the small steps forward.
I don’t know what the recovery path looks looks like (the longterm outcomes for this kind of crush injury don’t make for uplifting reading), but I’ll do everything I can to come back to climbing. First though, walking - one reinforced step at a time. 🍗🩼