07/06/2026
Pharoah, My perfect baby boy is gone…only 6 years old and had more life to live and he’s gone.
Had to euthanize my big boy this morning. I took him to a 24/7 pet hospital last night because he was acting strange. Guarding his stomach and would look disoriented. Him constantly pacing and not able to physically lay down due to discomfort. Hours later at the hospital, they find he is bleeding internally. No recent trauma. Vet felt a mass in his stomach and felt it was an aggressive form of cancer. He needed immediate surgery and if it was found to be cancer, he would’ve only had 2 months to live. With chemo, 6-9 months. Regardless, he needed immediate surgery to figure out what was being impacted. Surgery package was around 10-12k. That was just for the surgery. He would’ve still needed to be in treatment while waiting to see if it was cancer. I couldn’t put him through that. He was in immense pain and discomfort. I also did not have 12k to drop.
Vet said a lesion possibly tore/popped somewhere in his stomach which caused the bleeding. I’m cursing myself because I felt like I caused this. I bathed him yesterday and while I was massaging the soap on his belly, he yelped. I must’ve accidentally tore the lesion and he began to bleed internally right then and there and I didn’t catch it until a couple hours later. I feel sick to my stomach. Pharoah deserved more. He enjoyed peanut butter and ice cubes. He had endless toys. He enjoyed walks and playing with his brother. He loved to rub on you like a cat and sit on your feet. He was a big love bug. My baby is gone and half of me is gone. I have no appetite. I was there when he took his last breath. He bled because of me. He was hurting because of me. I ranted and I’m sorry. I don’t know what else to say.
\Edit\ WOW. I’m at a loss for words. You guys have made my day better. I’m still hurt and grieving heavily but just knowing I have this community who share similar feelings and stories have made this devastating event that occured today manageable.
