Love Left Me Alone

11/02/2019

Well I tried to be the perfect girlfriend, but the guy seems not to appreciate the effort I make, everything he wants me to do, I do it with love & passion but he doesn't see that. He always wants to see the worst out of me. He always try by his means to see me torn into pieces, I don't think I'll ever be enough for him. Well my problem is I put other people's happiness before mine, I sacrifice a lot of things just to keep one happy, yet they don't appreciate my efforts. One hard thing is I always crawl back to him, I don't know if it's because of love or what & he keeps hurting me again & again in the name of love.
Maybe Love doesn't exist, maybe it's all in our heads, I prayed & seems like my prayers are just stuck in this room, they ain't going anywhere as I feel like I'm not helped at all. I prayed for better situations, for peace, joy & love, but all that I'm getting is the opposite of my prayers.
I sometimes feel like giving up in life as I'm living hopelessly, thinking that I don't deserve to be loved as no one loves me
Lowered my self-esteem.
No more self-love

15/11/2018

A LETTER OF A BROKEN HEARTED WOMAN
When you thought you have found love again, someone you thought they love you like you love them.
Sometimes thoughts are the ones that lead us into wrong paths, don't even want to touch too much on the heart because it deceives one's mindset
I somehow feel like bad luck follows me around, I don't even know what bad did I do, thought I was on the good side Karma
There we go "THOUGHTS" again
What I've realized in life is that someone will never put the same effort as you, it's either they put more or less than you, and you mustn't have expectations on someone ad expectations breaks one's heart
The mistake that I live with is that I've learnt to sacrifice my own happiness for others and that tear me apart even more

04/06/2018

30/05/2018

A LETTER OF A BROKEN HEARTED GIRL

Dear you who broke my heart

All these months that we’ve shared together, all those happy moments meant nothing to you? All those problems that we managed to conquer simply meant nothing to you? Well every single thing that happened to us was kept in my heart, I don’t know why, or is it because I loved you more than I should’ve, is it because I believed you were the person waiting for me all these years, is it because I believed we were meant to be? Or is it because I believed we were soulmates? I sometimes wonder how do you sleep at night knowing very well you broke someone’s heart. I wonder if you still feel the same way or you honestly moved on. I sometimes tell myself that probably you took advantage of my love, of my kindness, of my caring heart. You knew very well that no matter how you hurt me I’ll come back to you & forgive you like nothing happened. I’ll still love you like the first time I fell for your love. You the only person that made me believe in love & you the person that also made me think love doesn’t exist . I lost hope, though I try to move on, I try seekin you from other guys, that makes it hard to move on. I sometimes wonder if you ever think of me or is just only me who’s fooling myself , maybe it wasn’t love, but if it wasn’t would I be feeling like this now ? I doubt so, would I mistakenly dial your numbers when trying to call someone else? I doubt so. I still believe you are mine. You were specifically made for me, you are my destiny . Never have I ever loved someone like I love you , you have the most precious place in my heart.

Your Love.