01/01/2026
Just your reminder that you can have everything you asked for and still struggle mentally.
2025 has given me Ayda, and for that I am eternally grateful, but with that I have felt my mental health deteriorate and I have been the lowest I have felt in nearly 8 years.
Everyone says that going from 1-2 is much easier than 0-1, and when that can’t the case with us it was a massive shock! Bonding took a lot longer, and because of Ayda’s issues she has spent a LOT of time distressed and in pain which I became quite resentful of. Now we know what is going on and now I’m getting the grips with being a mum of 2, it’s becoming easier but my god it has been a journey!
Despite the struggles, I’m looking forward to going into 2026. This will be the year that I learn more about myself and focus on becoming the healthiest version of myself. Not just for me, but for my girls ❤️
Happy new year everyone