03/08/2025
This is a continuation of my caption from my previous video. The caption was too long, so I had to split it. Please see the caption of my previous video for the first part of the caption. The below is a continuation of the caption of my previous post.------------Continuation of my Previous Facebook. Post I have sacrificed so much over the past year and half. I went through so much, emotionally, financially, physically, and mentally. But I didn't allow any of them to get me down longer than it needed to. I fought, everyday to keep it moving. I didn't allow myself to dwell too much in my defeat, bad day, bad weeks, or in my sadness. I kept showing up. I kept doing my research. I kept trying to figure out different ways to navigate through them.And for a short while, I was doing well. But each time, I feel like I am starting to get the hang of it, something would always pop. It always happened. I have never had a truly "out of the weeds" feeling or moment. I always felt that it's too good to be true. And now that I have finally started to let out just a little bit of air, I received this sad news.------------I really don't know what else to do. I have never felt like this before. I have always managed to handle this type of things out of social media. But this time it's different.I feel like I am loosing it. I don't know what else to do. I feel so defeated because I did everything right. Especially on my second YouTube channel. I learned from my lesson and I applied that on my second chance. But this happened. I really don't know what else to do. I really don't. And it's low key scaring me because I haven't felt like this before. I feel so defeated and so sad.
