05/12/2024
Nine years ago I got to one of the lowest lows of my life. Couldn't find happiness, couldn't find peace, and did not care about a lot of things in life. I was losing friendships. I was losing my ability to work. I lost a lot of trust and love from my family.
I wasn't going to therapy. I wasn't taking depression/anxiety medication. I was only drinking a lot to "escape". Little did I know, that was not rock bottom. Rock bottom was about 11 months later. I got kicked out of where I was living, my health was in serious danger, and even my doctor said that if I continued this lifestyle that I would be dead before I hit 40.
I went to rehab and for the first month didn't really care about anything and continued to drink... but the seeds were being planted. I relapsed twice in rehab, my rehab center kicked me out, and then for some reason a few days later they decided to let me back. It was one more go but it was no questions asked and I would be removed from the program again without hesitation.
That was eight years ago today and I will never forget the moment that I decided it was time. I was an absolute wreck and I was tired of living my life that way.
I went into that day scared I would never be able to figure it out , but things started to take. I learned I could do this life without drinking and I learned my life is a million times better than it was.
It wasn't overnight and it took years for me to figure it out, but I did and with the help of many other people, I am now convinced that I would not be typing this if I didn't stop drinking.
I don't like to be too serious about this stuff, but if you're out there and you're reading this and it feels similar, just know there is life on the other side and it's a lot better than the life you're currently living drunk. You can be as happy as me and millions of others if you put it in the work.
