Manicck

04/07/2021

Hello,

As you are aware, I've been inactive for quite some time, and I feel as though you all deserve an explanation as to why. I'm here to give you one. Whether you choose to believe me or not, I leave up to you.

In the last few weeks or months of being active on the page, I was running into a myriad of problems, from my PC not wanting to run Tarkov to my alternator going out on my car. Besides physical things, Natalie ended up losing her job which was significant. We did door dash for a while, but it never really went anywhere.

Covid was reaching its boiling point, and we were all 3 of us stuck inside our tiny 2 bedroom apartment together with no where to go. Being a dasher, Natalie was her own boss and made her own schedule. After a while it seemed, she was incapable of hold herself responsible to continue bringing money in as her own schedule writer.

Financially, we struggled. Jen kept us afloat on her own savings and her job by herself for a long time. She was able to work from home and kept us going. Meanwhile, we noticed something was wrong with Natalie. Like, truly wrong. Not like, "oh she's just being crazy", but more like "I think you're literally crazy".

After months of being at rock-bottom, we plead with her to seek help. Jen and I were just some 20-somethings who have always lived paycheck to paycheck. We didn't have the means or the education to help anymore, we were at the end of our rope. So we set an appointment. She saw a doctor, and she was diagnosed with BPD(Borderline Personality Disorder). BPD is what most people consider Bipolar Disorder to be.

Extreme mood swings, emotional highs and lows. Happy, to toxic, all in a matter of minutes. Months of emotional abuse, being disrespected and lied to, all explained by a mental disorder. We are all so glad, and came to turns that most things simply weren't her fault, and that as long as she sees her doctors and takes her meds, we can move on.

So we did. It was good for a while. Things were starting to look up, I was finally able to start applying for jobs again, without having to be there for her emotionally as her caretaker. Then, things got worse than they were before. Suicidal thoughts and thoughts of extreme self-harm were a constant occurrence. So we went back to the doctors and the therapists and asked for their help.

After dropping doctors and therapists and getting second and third opinions, it turns out she was finally diagnosed with Paranoid Schizophrenia. Fast forward to now, Natalie has a job, and she is on what we think is a good regimen of medications. She has two therapists, and a psychiatrist.

My life has been a struggle during Covid and 2020, and most of 2021. I'm sorry that it seemed like I just ghosted you all like that. It was never my intention to make you feel abandoned, or that I was some con artists that just scammed out out of money for gaming gear.

You were my family and I cherished the moments we all had together. I've never done anything with my life that was nearly as significant as this professionally. I started my own business here. I never knew anyone personally that ever got as far as I did with streaming, and YOU made it all happen.

You'll never have any idea how much it all means to me, and how much it still does.

TLDR: Girlfriend got diagnosed with Paranoid Schizophrenia, was extremely busy being a pineapple and taking care of her instead of abandoning her. Never wanted you guys to feel abandoned and I love you.

23/12/2020

Here we go boys! Another year of Tarkov lol

Escapers, here are the patch notes for update 0.12.9, Planned for tomorrow, December 24th:

THERE WILL BE A WIPE

Added and changed:

- “Woods” expansion.
- Reworked PMC initial gear sets.
- Added customization of head and voice when creating character: for now it’s only two new heads for each faction added. You can’t change head and voice after the character is created. You will be able to do it only after profile reset or wipe.
- Added skill “Immunity”.
- Reworked “Metabolism”.
- Reduced the volume of steps and interaction with vegetation.
- Added chance to cause bleedings to the ammunition. Now some ammo can cause heavy or light bleeding more often than other rounds.
- Now some face shields and glasses will reduce the time of blindness effect from flashbang rounds and gr***des.
- Players will be receiving letters with a supply package for the first 7 days of playing.
- Added “All” button in the purchasing menu when buying from dealers via Flea market. Now you can select all available items with a single click.
- Filters in the W-List tab are now modified separately and do not affect other Flea market tabs.
- “Enter” button now confirms the action in most dialogue windows.
- Slot highlighting when dragging items in your inventory can now be turned off.
- Equipped armbands are now unlootable and can’t be lost upon death.
- The letter with the reward for the exit in cooperation with the scav will now come with a slight delay.
- Containers will apply restriction filters to mods installed on the transported object. I.e., putting a mount with a thermal sight installed on it into a secured container is no longer allowed.
- New equipment and clothing is added: PMC tops and bottoms, body armor, rigs, Smoke balaclava, and tops for the Scavs.
- Changed the characteristics of a large number of weapon mods.
- Simplified the Jaeger quests.
- Updated some quests: changed ex*****on conditions, starting conditions, rewards.
- Reduced bonus of recoil reduction from the recoil control skill and weapon mastering.
- Now character overweight starts at 35 kg. Used to be 40.
- Increased purchase limits for some ammo from dealers.

New weapons and ammunition:

- KRISS Vector SMG in both 9х19 and .45.
- SIG MCX Assault rifle in .300 Blackout.
- UMP SMG in .45.
- Mk-18 mod 1 Mjölnir DMR in .338 LM.
- .300 blk, .338 Lapua Magnum ammunition.
- Various new weapon mods.

AI:

- Fixed bots hanging behind stationary weapons.
- Fixed a bug where Killa could not hear the enemies approaching from behind.
- Other various bot fixes and optimizations.

Optimization:

- Animation optimizations for interfaces.
- Optimizations of sounds in RAM.
- Server optimizations.

Fixed:

- Aiming a GL40 with Reflex sights.
- The position of the character's body when blind firing was not reset after opening the inventory.
- Blinding was imposed even if the player used a thermal imager.
- The stationary machine gun was removed from its mount if the player used it while in the blindfiring position.
- It was possible to use the tops and bottoms of the opposite faction.
- The nickname could not be changed if the new nickname was 15 characters long.
- The range value of the sight did not change immediately after alignment if the weapon had two sights on it.
- A duplicate weapon could hang behind the player's back for a few seconds after changing weapons.
- Some pants had the equipped gun hanging outside the holster during the fitting on the Ragman service screen.
- The observer did not see the player checking the fire mode on his weapon.
- Weapon presets:

It was impossible to delete the overwritten preset.
Wrong mods were installed on the weapon if the build was initiated during a save process.

- Failed to redeem all available items in the lot if the player attempted to purchase items over the limit.
- Failed to interact with the inventory in a raid if the player had previously disassembled the weapon via the context menu.
- When reactivating the exit with the hermetic door at the location Reserve, the siren stopped working earlier than it should have.
- The sensitivity while aiming down sights changed when putting and removing sights from the weapon.
- A character was performing a light gr***de throw only by double-pressing the RMB.
- Uninformative message about the lack of space in the stash when transferring items from the letter on "Receive all".
- The “Found in raid” status for the weapon would not update if you would put non-found in raid weapon mod on the gun.
- Incorrect information about the level of mastering in the weapon inspector.
- The price of 1 item decreased by 1 ruble if a player bought several of the same items from a dealer.
- The azimuth was missing if the player opened the pause menu with a compass in his hands.
- The camera could go through the body of another player.
- Missing messages in group chat.
- Various server errors.
- Various minor fixes.
- Various localization fixes.
- Various location fixes.

19/12/2020

Hey everyone, I haven't streamed in a while because I found out that I developed an allergy to aluminum.

I found out the hard way.

With a rash.

On my face.

I apologize for the inconsistencies, I will do better when this face disease gets better.

09/12/2020

Live at 2.
Love you guys 💓

08/12/2020

Alternator went out on the Subie,
Going live on Wednesday Evening 🍍

05/12/2020

Hey guys, sorry so long no talk :(
GF lost her job and we've been door dashing to make up for it.
Good news: its actually not bad?
More good news: Nvidia has been slowly updating their drivers for their gpu's and Tarkov run gooood now.

final good news: planning on doing a stream soon. I'm thinking about going back to how I used to stream Tarkov. Solo runs/ runs with Gillie. Good idea or no?

11/11/2020

Turns out my pc really doesnt like tarkov :(

Ill probably play Apex or something tomorrow, just so Im online. Sorry guys :/

09/11/2020

Best thing ive seen all year

“I saw this clip of today and I couldn't resist adding a little bit of editing. I hope you're doing okay, buddy. Let us know if you need to talk to a professional about your Tarkov experiences. https://t.co/oRcAQxl5Om”

08/11/2020

My micro stutters are coming back. Cleared cache, reinstalled drivers. Not sure why my pc doesnt like this game :(

04/11/2020

Pc is definitely not liking tarkov right now, keep bouncing between 144 fps and 40.

31/10/2020

Hey everyone, sorry for no stream yesterday, ended up sleeping like 18 hrs total.

Hope everyone is having a good Halloween! I'll be on tomorrow!

17/10/2020

Don't know who needs to hear this but

You're the best