06/05/2025
"Day 2 – Still Standing"
I’ve been through loss I never imagined. The kind that breaks not just your heart, but your sense of time, purpose, and belonging.
For a long time, I didn’t share. I stayed quiet. But now, I want to open this journey up, piece by piece. Not to relive pain, but to transform it.
This isn’t a story about what happened to me. It’s a story about what’s growing from me: gratitude, gentleness, strength, and light. It will be my experience.
If you're holding on by a thread right now, I see you. You’re not alone.
In January of 2018, my oldest autistic daughter started having seizures; they were many, and they are what I now know are called grand mal seizures. They are life-threatening and scary. In July the next year, I learned about SUDEP (sudden unexpected death in epilepsy), because of a friend my kids used to have. Talk about PTSD! I have lived in a state of ‘on watch’ ever since. I call it cortisol, constantly rushing through my body.
🌿 Today, I’m grateful I’m still standing.
