14/09/2026
Umfazi Ka Buti
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We left the office and went to the clinic. They checked and gave us an envelope with results. We proceeded to the mall and had cake; ice-cream even watched a movie. On our way home, I felt like I had failed my wife because I should have noticed what she was talking about. We reached the house and went upstairs to our room. We snaggled and slept. I was praying in my heart because we are not ready for another baby honestly, money does not mean anything if you do not have the mental motivation. I relived the times when the triplets had a cough which came with runny stomachs. She woke up and we looked at each other.
Fikile: [sigh] The thing is, I things have not been the same since giving birth. I feel terrified of being pregnant again which I should not be because of our history. The confidence in my looks, my b***s are deflated and my tummy is still recovering from stretch marks. [tears streaming] You always telling me that I am beautiful and sexy but I do not feel like that. I am having a tough time accepting how I look after the triplets. My weight is not making sense, I feel fragile and now the thought of another pregnancy feels like my worst nightmare.
Me: [I pulled her into my arms] Honestly I feel like I have let you down so many times, leaving you home with the triplets I felt so guilty and I felt like I could not balance between work, school and being your husband, that ate at me. I don’t know if you’ve noticed but I have gained such lot of weight, suddenly I am an ice-cream fan. The day I went to that emergency in the middle of the night because they could not breathe something inside me changed. Right now I cannot take a trip away for anything because I am afraid of what might happen in my absence.
Fikile: [laughing through the tears] People looking think we have it all.
Me: since the birth of our children, I haven’t slept for an uninterrupted 8 hours. There is simply no time for that. I feel so fragile and zero interest in risky things like rock climbing.
Fikile: I thought you are fine for a second.
Me: when we made these babies I had a six pack, right now I don’t even have the mind to enter gym. The thought of my kid crawling in and having their tiny hands stock on something traumatises me.
Fikile: I hear your brother is asking for you to donate to him so he can reproduce.
Me: My spirit is not there, I don’t believe in all these medical procedures. I wish him the very best of luck but I am not about to trust a man that ripped my heart out of my chest literally.
Fikile: I thought you have forgiven each other like a happy family.
Me: Forgiveness does not mean I trust them enough to close my eyes around them. Some people do not change, they are meant to be like that and I have made peace with that.
Fikile: Everyday I am grateful for the new leaf that you have turned. Four years ago I could have never predicted that this side of you existed.
Me: When you divorced me I felt like I am losing my mind and the fact that you left me, had a baby. That was the final nail to the coffin. Suddenly the st*****rs were not stripping enough, like nothing enticed me. I felt empty like my heart relocated elsewhere.
Fikile: I still wonder how you did not end up with Precious.
Me: Your sister’s charms clashed with my mother’s situation, being with her felt controlled. I could feel a strange presence around her. Seeing you with Simele killed me slowly, seeing you happy in that tiny house of his, gave me nightmares I am still recovering from. I never realized how much I loved you until he abused you, that just dismantled my entire being, pain felt like the oxygen in my lungs.
Fikile: We need to open this envelope and see how many months we have before the roller-coaster starts again.
Me: [I took a deep breathe and she opened the envelope. We looked at each other in disbelieve.]
Fikile: [laughs] Just exhaustion nothing much, I need to get vitamins and rest more.
Helper: [knocks on the door] Sir, your mother and sister are at the entrance gate asking for permission to enter should I press to let them in?
Me: No, tell them we are not home. You will only allow them when we get back.
Helper: Noted sir.
Me: Let’s start the first stage of recovery. Let’s sleep for a bi…[receives a call from Safo] this is n…
Safo: [babies crying in the background] Look I have tried everything to soothe them my wife is not around. Help me please.
Fikile: [sits up] try a sponge bath while speaking to them. It should calm them down.
Safo: Okay. [sound of things moving, then call ends]
Me: Babies can squeeze all the excitement you ever had out of you. [we laugh, he calls again after two minutes]
Safo: [emotional] Is it supposed to be this hard? I just placed them in water and now they want to sleep. How do you people do this thing? You make it look so easy.
Me: Hang in there bro, it will come together.
Safo: I thought I knew my way around children but I am way in over my head. I don’t know but I am struggling. I feel like I am failing my wife, I am always tired between work and home life. I mean I don’t remember the last sentence we had in bed last night because I straight up passed out. My wife is beautiful but I cannot bring myself to touch her because what if we fall pregnant again? I don’t feel self-confident that I am the best right now.
Me: [chuckles] I know that feeling brother, being married to someone whose strong sometimes makes you wonder because our wives barely complain. Just yesterday I was having a nightmare about my wife being snatched. Can you believe we have not had a proper date since the birth of our triplets? It feels like we are giving up on ourselves and are always tired. I mean the second we arrive from work, the house is already upside down.
Safo: Aish!
Me: I would say please sit down with her and speak to her about how you feel.
Safo: I’m sorry for bothering you like this, you must think I am a cry baby.
Me: You know who’s the cry baby between us.
Safo: [laughs] I am glad that madam took you back, for once I can forget all the midnight calls of you crying about her and Simele. That boy will never see heaven, I have never experienced you that emotional before.
Me: Don’t worry, maybe we could arrange for a couples get away soonest.
Helper: [Knocks on the door] Sir…
Me: chat later dude [ends the call and goes to the door. The minute I opened, the triplets heard my voice and started crying from downstairs] Yes Mma.
Helper: I have to rush home, my house is apparently ruined by the rain.
Fikile: [gets off the bed] Ask the driver to drop you off, apologies Mma.
The head of the house returns home with his daughter in law in high spirits. Safo’s mother meets them at the door and notices that her husband is in a lighter mood and cheerful. They enter with some council members and settle in the garage with cookies and some drinks.
Khanyisa: Do you need any assistance?
Zanele: This is your house Mma, My work here is done. I am sure that my husband is overwhelmed at home with the babies. I need to head back there.
Khanyisa: I am sorry for how everything happened between us, I don’t want us to be enemies.
Zanele: I cannot be your enemy when you birthed me such a wonderful man for a husband. I am too happy with the works of your womb to hold anything against you.
Khanyisa: How do you get my husband to be in such a good mood?
Zanele: You will find your way back Mma, you know the man more than anyone else here. As much as he was angry that does not mean he does not love you. Remember you taught me that not every man is impressed with women on the magazines? That method works for me and I believe it could salvage this situation. There is not need for you to try be like Mam’khulu, be yourself.
Khanyisa: send my greetings to your husband.
Zanele: have a good day further.
Mr Khoza: See you on the next schedule, I will send you the buckets. The woman’s leader will be in contact regarding the issues that were raised. Once the report is made, please forward it to finance for approval.
Zanele: I will so exactly that, Pa.
Mr Khoza: Thank you dear, send my greetings to your husband. [Zanele leaves and awkward silence rests in the house]
Khanyisa: I am sorry for the way I behaved, it was really uncalled for.
Mr Khoza: You need to stop apologising because I have nothing against you. A lot has happened between us but we are too old to be having dating wars. We have a family to raise and hold together.
Khanyisa: So what does that mean?
Mr Khoza: We need to find the fine line and make it work.