25/09/2025
"I Can't live without You 🫵🏼❤️🥺"...
At some point in life you've had someone say this words to you or you've said it to someone, even felt that way about someone or something. It's not like you were lying when you said this , they might've been serious about it, meant every word but truly speaking 'they can't live without you ' until they have to live without you.
I felt like there wouldn't be a world were I'd be breathing without my mom, even thinking about it at the time used to get me emotional as I couldn't picture a world without her. When the nurses came and said "I'm sorry to inform you this but Priscilla is no more..." I couldn't breath properly,my brain couldn't process any information, 'You should be a man and stay strong' was nothing but dust in the wind . I cried and it hurt me way more as there was not a single person at the time who at least felt the pain I was feeling, my siblings were not there, I felt so alone yet surrounded by many relatives from my mom's side of the family and my dad with a few from his side. I couldn't see properly,my heart was hurting.
I never really asked God why He would do that to me or let it happen. It's strange because when I woke up the next day I thought maybe I was going to see her. It felt like a dream until the day we had to bury my mom, the woman who sacrificed it all for my happiness, the woman who turned to God when she lacks anything, the only woman who genuinely loved me unconditionally, the only woman who said she loves me and expected nothing from it.
Everyday I now had to face the world without her, someone will live without you and they'll slowly learn how to smile again and again and again. Every moment counts , make the best memories with everyone you love and care about, Life will never be exactly the way we want it to be but we get to decide whether we wanna be happy or sad.
