28/07/2025
Theres this post I saw on whether how much you can lose weight or gain it, you have to be content about it and embrace it - if I remember correctly.
Now I've come to think about my situation. For ex. I've lost a ton of weight and I've never felt so low in my life (Not saying people who have Kgs lower than what I had are any sort of bad or not good). I also encountered eyesight and eye problems, having sudden pain on my right eye for an extended 2 plus hours or not be able to completely see things that are even close to me( sometimes). And And a lot of other things that I can't list. Bullying and health issues had been one of the main reasons that contributed to my weight loss, being drained emotionally, constantly changing places to live and piling myself inside the house and only exit on month end to go food shopping.
I've experienced a lot of 'friendship breakups' which led to the bullying that I mentioned above and to be quite frank...it was hard and painful but taught me a lot. Some females would help me in situations where I never knew the exit door but turn out to be the ones that play the same character they took me away from. It's saddens my soul that people don't know that no matter how much they cast bad energies at me, make my life miserable & so forth _ never diminish the pride and dignity of who I am. Yes...I have history and cringe mistakes. Don't you? Yea and as far as I'm concerned, no one would ever convince me otherwise about who I am and where I come from as this broken person. Whether big or the size I am now, I still know my worth and how I'm gonna get there through God, ngendlela endakhuliswa ngayo ekhaya.
This post is not intended for pity but acknowledging that you're beautiful just as you are. Unfortunately, that is not how I feel right now but knowing what I want to do on my next baby step.
