07/10/2025
Postpartum has been hard and I’ve been giving myself a harder time. I’m going to be 8 months postpartum this Monday and I’m gonna be completely honest with you guys, I feel like absolute sh*t. Physically. Mentally I’m thriving thanks to my supportive and loving husband and family. But because of how I feel physically, my mental health gets affected too. During my pregnancy, started to gain weight (duh) but even after I just kept packing on pounds after pounds. Everyone tells me ‘Oh you’re pp, you just had a baby’ but it does take a toll on you. I’ve always always always struggled with body weight and body dysmorphia and right before I got pregnant, I was so comfy in my own skin, I was confident but now, I feel gross to take a picture of myself. I haven’t been posting myself lately which makes it a lot more difficult for me since content creation is my thing, it’s been my thing since I was what like 9? But now, I give myself so much crap for the way I look and even with all the support, I don’t have my support and I think that’s what I’m looking for. My own support but unfortunately even though I try to amp myself up (like in this picture) I end up finding all the flaws I have.
Working out and eating healthy is an option and I try TRUST ME, but with a baby that demands so much time, it gets hard. Get a nanny people say, still doesn’t work out, I’m a hands on mom and she’s a very hands on my mom’s b***s kinda gal so I can’t just leave and go, I gotta take her with me. Be it 5am or 5pm , that girly needs her mama or maybe her mama’s b**b but whatever, same same. Plus the mom guilt then kicks in and then it’s over! Luckily the new house has stairs so I do end up getting some kinda exercise but my back is fu*ked. I guess it’s the aftermaths of epidural or the freagin 36 hours of labor and of course 5 months of sciatica that bending down for more than 5 mins seems like a million years. But breastfeeding is tiring and you just feel so hungry ALL. THE. TIME that I just wanna keep eating and eating so throw out the ‘eat healthy or less’ part.
I know some mamas out there feel the same way I do but someone’s gotta say speak up
